During these days, since I find my writing skill is very poor and there might be lots of mistakes in my diaries, I think I should stop writing my blog for days.
Maybe after I finished the writing lessons gave by Peichen Huang, who comes from the Neworiental School, I will continue my diaries on this blog. "Practice makes perfect", everyone knew this expression, but the premise is that the practice you did must be correct, and there should be a teacher who will correct you when you make any mistake. I don't have such a good condition, so I must do my best to reduce my grammar mistakes as well as the faults in my expressions.
Taking Mr. Jing's advice, who taught the reading comprehension, I have started reciting passages he recommended on the GE papers in last decade. I believe after such practice I will be more skillful in using English
2007年5月9日星期三
2007年5月5日星期六
240 days left
I chatted with Kathy nearly 4 hours today. Did I waste so much time? Maybe, but I feel good when I chatted with her. Virtually, when I was communicating with her, an invisible girl, I feel a little comfortable and safe. I think if I can meet her one day, no matter how she looks like, we will be good friends. When one lonely heart meets another on the Internet, the tie between you can soft your heart and release your pressure. So why not keep this kind of interesting relationship?
2007年5月4日星期五
241 days left
Since the Internet connection was repaired today, I can continue my blog which has been missed for two days.
Mom called me and celebrate the Youth Day for me, and at the same time I also told her that on 20th of this month, is her lunar birthday of 50 years old. But she seemed doesn't expect that day very much, may be for two reasons: first, I can't take part in her birthday's celebration; second, it seems nobody cares her birthday except me. You can never count on my father to do something for my mother, he will never appreciate my mother even though mom dedicate her whole life to this family. And I don't want to talk about this unhappy thing.
I hope one day I can earn lots of money so that I can buy many clothes for her as well as various jewelries and any other items she want. I'll give my whole life to appreciate my mom and do my best to make her happy and fortunate. I'll take her to travel around the world and buy a house in her hometown so that she can visit her relatives and friends whenever she want. I'll compensate her, I promise.
Some times I lose my motivations to study, even that's just because I learned for too long and feel tired, but I think I should work harder, because for preparing the GE I also have a long and hard way to go. If I failed the exam...I can't imagine that, so I must win!
Mom called me and celebrate the Youth Day for me, and at the same time I also told her that on 20th of this month, is her lunar birthday of 50 years old. But she seemed doesn't expect that day very much, may be for two reasons: first, I can't take part in her birthday's celebration; second, it seems nobody cares her birthday except me. You can never count on my father to do something for my mother, he will never appreciate my mother even though mom dedicate her whole life to this family. And I don't want to talk about this unhappy thing.
I hope one day I can earn lots of money so that I can buy many clothes for her as well as various jewelries and any other items she want. I'll give my whole life to appreciate my mom and do my best to make her happy and fortunate. I'll take her to travel around the world and buy a house in her hometown so that she can visit her relatives and friends whenever she want. I'll compensate her, I promise.
Some times I lose my motivations to study, even that's just because I learned for too long and feel tired, but I think I should work harder, because for preparing the GE I also have a long and hard way to go. If I failed the exam...I can't imagine that, so I must win!
2007年5月1日星期二
244 days left
Wisdom, justice, fortitude, and temperance were the four virtues Musulus listed to his son Commodus, who murdered his father lord in the movie of The Gladiator and usurped the throng of the Caesar.
Today I saw a section of the movie again, about one quarter. Each time I see the movie, I can gain some power, and this time I got the four words as the essential virtues to be a philosopher.
Fortitude and temperance are crucial for me, and if I want to achieve something great, I must learn that at my best.
Today I saw a section of the movie again, about one quarter. Each time I see the movie, I can gain some power, and this time I got the four words as the essential virtues to be a philosopher.
Fortitude and temperance are crucial for me, and if I want to achieve something great, I must learn that at my best.
2007年4月30日星期一
245 days left
Tomorrow will be the start of the seven-day holiday—Golden Week, which we called it. Actually, nearly everybody say it in this way. I really need a rest and some adjustments in those days, then I will be looking forward to the GE more confidently and courageously.
That would not be an impossible goal for me, a brave man with lots of energy, a persistent guy with the strongest perseverance as well as a brilliant student with an excellent intelligence.
And for chasing my dreams, nothing can be an obstacle in my way. I was a little inspired by a movie a saw just now, and there was a sentence impressed me: There's an old saying. "Jumping off a cliff only hurts if you forget how to fly."
The leading actor of that movie is an self-confident guy, he told his students who were in great inferiority when they're attending a ball full of superior noble, that "Take away their good looks, their money and their superior attitude, and what do you have?"
Yes, when take away all the people already have, we were all the same, the only thing that can distinguish us is our thought and our soul; and if our thought is powerful and our soul is clear, we are the noble.
That would not be an impossible goal for me, a brave man with lots of energy, a persistent guy with the strongest perseverance as well as a brilliant student with an excellent intelligence.
And for chasing my dreams, nothing can be an obstacle in my way. I was a little inspired by a movie a saw just now, and there was a sentence impressed me: There's an old saying. "Jumping off a cliff only hurts if you forget how to fly."
The leading actor of that movie is an self-confident guy, he told his students who were in great inferiority when they're attending a ball full of superior noble, that "Take away their good looks, their money and their superior attitude, and what do you have?"
Yes, when take away all the people already have, we were all the same, the only thing that can distinguish us is our thought and our soul; and if our thought is powerful and our soul is clear, we are the noble.
2007年4月29日星期日
246 days left
My illness is going worse, but during the couple of days after I started to watch(I think the word watch is more accurate because I listened it on my computer screen) the Neworiental GE lectures. The teachers are experienced and very good at learning English, and their teaching style are very humorous and vivid, I even a little addicted to their lectures.
Mr Jin who teaches reading comprehension elaborately illustrate a series of effective ways to cope with every question after the exam texts. More importantly, he teaches us how to be familiar with the reading articles of GE and the way to solve those problems. One valuable tip is to make some cards wrote on long-difficult sentences and the translation of them on the opposite side, in this way you can read these forms of the sentences at any moment as well as practice your translation skills.
He also emphasized the importance of the real texts in last decade and suggested us doing our best to master the 60 articles, even to recite 20 of them and read the rest ones very familiarly. Recite and reading loudly are the best ways to learning a language, because if you can imitate the native language speaker's way of using such language completely, that means you have mastered this language just as them.
Mr Jin who teaches reading comprehension elaborately illustrate a series of effective ways to cope with every question after the exam texts. More importantly, he teaches us how to be familiar with the reading articles of GE and the way to solve those problems. One valuable tip is to make some cards wrote on long-difficult sentences and the translation of them on the opposite side, in this way you can read these forms of the sentences at any moment as well as practice your translation skills.
He also emphasized the importance of the real texts in last decade and suggested us doing our best to master the 60 articles, even to recite 20 of them and read the rest ones very familiarly. Recite and reading loudly are the best ways to learning a language, because if you can imitate the native language speaker's way of using such language completely, that means you have mastered this language just as them.
2007年4月28日星期六
247 days left
Today I listened another lecture in the section of the GE reading comprehension which takes 70% in the total scores. "The success of the GE is determined by the English test" said the teacher Jin Wei who teaches at the Neworiental. "And the success of the English test is determined by the reading comprehension part." He also said that if you did very well in this part, the score of 80 is no longer a dream.
So that's the importance of the reading comprehension. I've always believed that my reading skill is not bad. Until today, I know it was terrible after I failed all the four questions of a text he gave on class. Fortunately, I found this vulnerability not too late. I can understand what the text say and through the whole article there's no new word for me, so I have a good English fundament, what I need is just the skill of the test and the way of how to choose the right answer. Thus, this lecture must be very helpful for me.
I want to finish all of the reading, vocabulary, writing lectures during the 5.1 holiday and will make a new plan for my English study after that.
So that's the importance of the reading comprehension. I've always believed that my reading skill is not bad. Until today, I know it was terrible after I failed all the four questions of a text he gave on class. Fortunately, I found this vulnerability not too late. I can understand what the text say and through the whole article there's no new word for me, so I have a good English fundament, what I need is just the skill of the test and the way of how to choose the right answer. Thus, this lecture must be very helpful for me.
I want to finish all of the reading, vocabulary, writing lectures during the 5.1 holiday and will make a new plan for my English study after that.
2007年4月27日星期五
248 days left
I spent more than 6 hours to watch some interesting GE tutorial classes in the form of flash which comes from Neworiental, including vocabulary class taught by Liu Chang and writing class taught by Huang Peichen. I learned a lot of exam skills from them, but what they impressed me most is their humorous speech style when they are giving lectures.
I think I have something to do during this 5.1 holiday, rather than just watching the mathematic Powerpoint. I have to admit that the CD brother Hou gave me is very helpful and valuable. Since I don't take the GE tutorial spring fundamental classes, I need some guides and instructions about.
I think I have something to do during this 5.1 holiday, rather than just watching the mathematic Powerpoint. I have to admit that the CD brother Hou gave me is very helpful and valuable. Since I don't take the GE tutorial spring fundamental classes, I need some guides and instructions about.
2007年4月26日星期四
249 days left
Xu Xiao called me from his school tonight, he said today the city of Xian is completely without power for 41 hours because of a rebuilding of power station. We talked about 40 minutes, but Xu didn't told me anything about Taiwan and the state safety, as his words, "All of the telephones in his school were monitored and the phone he was using is not except.
So we just chatted about something else, about his leg waiting for an operation in July, and his usual life in Xian. I have to admit that Xu's broken leg must be his biggest regret. As an athlete, he used to get champions of the Lanzhou City's Athlete Meeting in high jump and long jump, and he is the main force in his college basketball team. And his injury also came from his favorite game-- basketball.
So we just chatted about something else, about his leg waiting for an operation in July, and his usual life in Xian. I have to admit that Xu's broken leg must be his biggest regret. As an athlete, he used to get champions of the Lanzhou City's Athlete Meeting in high jump and long jump, and he is the main force in his college basketball team. And his injury also came from his favorite game-- basketball.
2007年4月24日星期二
250 days left
I suddenly recalled two of my enemies and the revenge I would take for my mother in the future. I don't know what time it should be taken, but as an old expression said that: 10 years is not late for a real man who was thirsting for revenge. I'm thirsting for the sweet of the revenge, but it's already 15 years past and I haven't did that yet. Unbelievably, I even sat at the opposite side against my enemy once in the last spring festival, but at that time, I know I can't do that.
I don't want to live under the shadow of enmity, but maybe it is another strong motivation of working harder and be more powerful. I really thirst for the power, man's power; and I felt that the ambitions which has been sealed deeply in my heart has grew so strong that I even can't seal it any more; at the same time, the ambitious side of me once just live in the subconscious is getting more and more prominent these years, especially after my electromagnetic cooker and electric cooker been robbed a few months before.
For me, the way to be powerful is only through the academic way: getting Master's degree, then Doctor's degree, doing my best be a great scientist with great achievements and great honors, and in Chinese famous equals to powers, at least in some areas.
I don't want to live under the shadow of enmity, but maybe it is another strong motivation of working harder and be more powerful. I really thirst for the power, man's power; and I felt that the ambitions which has been sealed deeply in my heart has grew so strong that I even can't seal it any more; at the same time, the ambitious side of me once just live in the subconscious is getting more and more prominent these years, especially after my electromagnetic cooker and electric cooker been robbed a few months before.
For me, the way to be powerful is only through the academic way: getting Master's degree, then Doctor's degree, doing my best be a great scientist with great achievements and great honors, and in Chinese famous equals to powers, at least in some areas.
2007年4月23日星期一
250 days left
Kathy made it! Here I should mention that this Kathy is my classmate in the minor of law, rather than that Kathy comes from Taiwan. And she's the only girl I really liked during my college years. She has enrolled by the Dalian Marine University in the major of Law, and she's the only one in my minor class that has successfully past the GE of Law, other two excellent classmates were failed.
When I received the message with the cheerful news, I was really laughed out and excited for her success! "You're really great!" I typed that, "So please enjoy this wonderful moment as much as you can!"
She deserved it because she has made it, so what about me? How can I take this challenge and make my dream comes true too? Hehe, I believe I will, because I'm a man:)
When I received the message with the cheerful news, I was really laughed out and excited for her success! "You're really great!" I typed that, "So please enjoy this wonderful moment as much as you can!"
She deserved it because she has made it, so what about me? How can I take this challenge and make my dream comes true too? Hehe, I believe I will, because I'm a man:)
2007年4月22日星期日
251 days left
I chat with Kathy just now through the TM phone about 30 minutes, and I felt my oral English is so poor that I even can't express myself through the simplest sentence. I have a long way to go to master the daily sentences and expressions of English, even though I was a little frustrated about it, I will do my best to improve my speaking ability; at least I have Kathy, a good friend who like to chat with me and practice oral English with me together.
I have told Kathy that when we are chatting we should try our best to use English rather than Chinese to express ourself until it's impossible, then we can use some Chinese to help express it. But today when I have a trouble to express myself, I gave up to talk in English and used Chinese frequently. In contrast, Kathy didn't use Chinese until she had to. I think I was a little nervous just now, I don't know why, maybe it's the lacking of self-confidence.
But if I afraid and even move back, I will lose a good chance to practice spoken English and conquer the scare of speaking in English. So I have to encourage myself and try my best, more important, I'm willing to know people's feeling beyond the other side of the Taiwan Straits because I believe that we are always compatriots no matter under what conditions in what time.
I have told Kathy that when we are chatting we should try our best to use English rather than Chinese to express ourself until it's impossible, then we can use some Chinese to help express it. But today when I have a trouble to express myself, I gave up to talk in English and used Chinese frequently. In contrast, Kathy didn't use Chinese until she had to. I think I was a little nervous just now, I don't know why, maybe it's the lacking of self-confidence.
But if I afraid and even move back, I will lose a good chance to practice spoken English and conquer the scare of speaking in English. So I have to encourage myself and try my best, more important, I'm willing to know people's feeling beyond the other side of the Taiwan Straits because I believe that we are always compatriots no matter under what conditions in what time.
2007年4月21日星期六
252 days left
Finally, I cleaned my room after a 5 hours siesta, and the heap of clothes still swell and fester. May be tomorrow I can wash some of them, but I just say may be.
I have made an appointment with Kathy that I'll chat with her through TM voice talk, unfortunately, however, my Internet service have something wrong, so I don't know if it will run OK in use the voice talk even though Kathy hasn't logged on QQ yet.
I met with Yang Yuan on TM and she told me that the major exam of the GE of Xian Jiaotong University in the subject of Biomedical Engineering hasn't been decided yet, and perhaps the paper will be the mix of the Signal and System and the Theory of Microcomputer according to her college mates' words who were also in my subject.
Thanks to my middle school's classmate Yang Yuan who studied in the School of Life Science & Technology, I can receive the latest internal and reliable news of changes in next year's GE, also helped me saving a lot of energy and time to collect such informations. With these beneficial conditions and friends, I'm sure that I can easily pass the exam if I work hard this year.
I have made an appointment with Kathy that I'll chat with her through TM voice talk, unfortunately, however, my Internet service have something wrong, so I don't know if it will run OK in use the voice talk even though Kathy hasn't logged on QQ yet.
I met with Yang Yuan on TM and she told me that the major exam of the GE of Xian Jiaotong University in the subject of Biomedical Engineering hasn't been decided yet, and perhaps the paper will be the mix of the Signal and System and the Theory of Microcomputer according to her college mates' words who were also in my subject.
Thanks to my middle school's classmate Yang Yuan who studied in the School of Life Science & Technology, I can receive the latest internal and reliable news of changes in next year's GE, also helped me saving a lot of energy and time to collect such informations. With these beneficial conditions and friends, I'm sure that I can easily pass the exam if I work hard this year.
2007年4月20日星期五
253 days left
Wang Zhiyu has quit his job for nearly a week, and when I saw him today, through his pale complexion I can see the tiredness(or weariness) in his dull eyes.
These days he must be tortured by his quiting of the job just because someone's supplantation and dissatisfaction with him. Wang is an excellent manager as well as a good worker, but his leader is such a foolish boss that didn't know anything except endless talking and emphases on trivial things. As Wang said, his boss is just an old classmate of the head boss and without any exceptional ability. However, Wang has a lot of ideas and creativities that can't be represented under the control of this stupid boss. One old expression in Chinese said that: there's no place for a hero. In addition to other's supplanation, so he choose to quit.
These days he must be tortured by his quiting of the job just because someone's supplantation and dissatisfaction with him. Wang is an excellent manager as well as a good worker, but his leader is such a foolish boss that didn't know anything except endless talking and emphases on trivial things. As Wang said, his boss is just an old classmate of the head boss and without any exceptional ability. However, Wang has a lot of ideas and creativities that can't be represented under the control of this stupid boss. One old expression in Chinese said that: there's no place for a hero. In addition to other's supplanation, so he choose to quit.
2007年4月19日星期四
254 days left
If you are under the water, what's your most desired thing? Of cause the air! So if you desire the success of the Graduate Exam(GE) just as you desire air under the water, triumphs will be anywhere you would be.
This sentence comes from an article wrote by a predecessor of the GE on the Internet. However, who can actually do that? Even though I'm quite sure that if there is anyone who followed that would be success undoubtedly.
But one thing is sure that I must have a strong expectation of the success at least, that is—I can do that! Then it will help me to strengthen my confidence.
Another important tip I got at the mathematics is that solving problems by yourself rather than just looking examples in books is crucial. One man said that because of his neglect of doing enough practice, he just got a poor score of 59 at the first time he take GE. He said when he was seeing the familiar problems on the paper with the knowledge of how to solve them but lacking of useful ways once he saw in the examples, he recognized that he has been actually making a mistake in "low hands with high eyes". Therefore, after the failure he started to do more exercises independently and at the second year he finally got an excellent score—147!
I think this is a revelational example for me, also a "low hands with high eyes" guy that reluctant to do exercises. I'm watching the PowerPoint of Mathematics now, sometimes I will take up my pen and solve problems on paper with the reference of examples on my computer screen. Apparently, the process is not independent and the exercises I took are obviously too little, so I should take enough time to do more exercises after watching PPT in the future. Practice makes perfect after all.
This sentence comes from an article wrote by a predecessor of the GE on the Internet. However, who can actually do that? Even though I'm quite sure that if there is anyone who followed that would be success undoubtedly.
But one thing is sure that I must have a strong expectation of the success at least, that is—I can do that! Then it will help me to strengthen my confidence.
Another important tip I got at the mathematics is that solving problems by yourself rather than just looking examples in books is crucial. One man said that because of his neglect of doing enough practice, he just got a poor score of 59 at the first time he take GE. He said when he was seeing the familiar problems on the paper with the knowledge of how to solve them but lacking of useful ways once he saw in the examples, he recognized that he has been actually making a mistake in "low hands with high eyes". Therefore, after the failure he started to do more exercises independently and at the second year he finally got an excellent score—147!
I think this is a revelational example for me, also a "low hands with high eyes" guy that reluctant to do exercises. I'm watching the PowerPoint of Mathematics now, sometimes I will take up my pen and solve problems on paper with the reference of examples on my computer screen. Apparently, the process is not independent and the exercises I took are obviously too little, so I should take enough time to do more exercises after watching PPT in the future. Practice makes perfect after all.
2007年4月18日星期三
255 days left
I ordered a cup of coffee in the Mcdonald's next to the Chengjian Natatorium at 10:00 this morning, and Pangpang took me there by his car after the first class. I selected a quiet and neat corner and put my coffee on the little table waiting for Giant Gui since we had decided to swim for one hour from 12:10, and according to my previous plan, I took out my book, paper, and pencil starting solving mathematics' problem instantly.
Surely, I attracted people's attentions easily, but that didn't disrupt me; in contrast, I pretended to study hard and think serious because I know someone was watching me with a doubt just like that: why this guy study here?
It seemed that I was fascinated by pretending to do such ridiculous things since I was very young. Once upon a time, about 5 years old, when someone visited my house, I always loved to sit on a low bench and put a calligraphic book on another much taller stool, then see the unrecognizable ancient Chinese characters seriously so that I would win the guest's praise. I even put the stools at the door and studied at there, of course with an opening door.
Such things companied with my growing experiences as long as 23 years, and it happened again on today's morning at the Mcdonald's. I love to be watched by people and attract other's attentions because I want to prove that I'm the best, and I'm the hero! Maybe Kathy is right, men in the Leo was born to show off.
But when a lion Lord lose his confidence, he would be the weakest one in the world. The dignity of a lion should be held during his life even after his death, such as Xiang Yu, I believe he's also a Lion. Being the king of the men when you was alive, being the lord of the ghost after you died.
Even though I can't be a real king, at least I can do my best on my study and my career, be a king in my area of research is also an glorious honor to show off.
So for the honor of the Lion Lord, do my best!
Surely, I attracted people's attentions easily, but that didn't disrupt me; in contrast, I pretended to study hard and think serious because I know someone was watching me with a doubt just like that: why this guy study here?
It seemed that I was fascinated by pretending to do such ridiculous things since I was very young. Once upon a time, about 5 years old, when someone visited my house, I always loved to sit on a low bench and put a calligraphic book on another much taller stool, then see the unrecognizable ancient Chinese characters seriously so that I would win the guest's praise. I even put the stools at the door and studied at there, of course with an opening door.
Such things companied with my growing experiences as long as 23 years, and it happened again on today's morning at the Mcdonald's. I love to be watched by people and attract other's attentions because I want to prove that I'm the best, and I'm the hero! Maybe Kathy is right, men in the Leo was born to show off.
But when a lion Lord lose his confidence, he would be the weakest one in the world. The dignity of a lion should be held during his life even after his death, such as Xiang Yu, I believe he's also a Lion. Being the king of the men when you was alive, being the lord of the ghost after you died.
Even though I can't be a real king, at least I can do my best on my study and my career, be a king in my area of research is also an glorious honor to show off.
So for the honor of the Lion Lord, do my best!
2007年4月17日星期二
256 days left
I stopped the self criticism for days, however, it doesn't mean that I've corrected some of my fault, so today it should be restarted.
I recalled a famous person in the modern history of China: Zeng Guofan. The great leader Chairman Mao once said Zeng is the only person he admired in the modern history of China. Why? Because Zeng's perseverance in correcting his faults, and his courage of pointing them out. He really did it, and finally he became a perfect man, at least in his time.
I have to say that these days I was a little addicted by the TM and MSN which are live messengers. For instance, I can't help from checking who's online and then chatting with them. Chatting can waste time, more seriously, checking as well as waiting for someone's response can waste more time and distract or divert my attention. So I must abstain from them, no wonder who's there.
At the same time, stop browsing other irrelevant websites so that I can save time to concentrate on my study. If I do, I will warn myself and stop instantly by closing the Firefox.
I recalled a famous person in the modern history of China: Zeng Guofan. The great leader Chairman Mao once said Zeng is the only person he admired in the modern history of China. Why? Because Zeng's perseverance in correcting his faults, and his courage of pointing them out. He really did it, and finally he became a perfect man, at least in his time.
I have to say that these days I was a little addicted by the TM and MSN which are live messengers. For instance, I can't help from checking who's online and then chatting with them. Chatting can waste time, more seriously, checking as well as waiting for someone's response can waste more time and distract or divert my attention. So I must abstain from them, no wonder who's there.
At the same time, stop browsing other irrelevant websites so that I can save time to concentrate on my study. If I do, I will warn myself and stop instantly by closing the Firefox.
2007年4月16日星期一
257 days left
Xu Xiao wants to take the graduate exam too in the year of 2008, it's a little shocked me. However maybe it's also the best way for him to promote in the army, even though I don't understand the promotion rule of soldiers.
In fact, he's already an officer of lieutenant, and is studying in the Xi'an Politics Institute of PLA. I want to talk about Taiwan's Problem with him, but he insisted that this topic shouldn't be talked on the Internet since it's unsafe and our conversation may be spied so that the national secret he knows would be leaked out. I think he's too serious and cautious, but he promised that he will call me and talk about it on the telephone when he leave hospital after the operation. So I'm looking forward to that calling and the lecture of the National Safe and Political Condition gave from this old friend.
In fact, he's already an officer of lieutenant, and is studying in the Xi'an Politics Institute of PLA. I want to talk about Taiwan's Problem with him, but he insisted that this topic shouldn't be talked on the Internet since it's unsafe and our conversation may be spied so that the national secret he knows would be leaked out. I think he's too serious and cautious, but he promised that he will call me and talk about it on the telephone when he leave hospital after the operation. So I'm looking forward to that calling and the lecture of the National Safe and Political Condition gave from this old friend.
2007年4月15日星期日
258 days left
Xu Xiao's broken leg was hurt again, he said his knee of the broken left leg was inflamed, and it needs an operation to draw out the water in his knee. Her mother will go to Xian tomorrow to look after her, I hope the operation will be very successful. Bless for him!
2007年4月14日星期六
259 days left
I chat with Kathy for 4 hours! Oh my god! I can't believe that I chat with a girl for such a long time. I can't remember how many topics we have chatted, but one thing is sure that we didn't stopped during the 4 hours except a 5 minutes break just because she had to collect her clothes that she dried outside.
Her voice sounds good, even though not very sweet as I expect, but after I listened it for a long time, it became more familiar, just like an old friend. And how can you complain at the voice of your friend?
And her English, I think it's better than me. But she said that my tone was the British English rather than the American English as she speak, because my pronunciation of the word "not". I should admit that I pronounced "not" like the British English more, even if I studied the American English when I started to listen Studioclassroom, but the change comes a little slowly and I often forgot to pronounce "o" in the tone of the American English. I will pay more attention on that in the future.
We will chat tomorrow, and if we have time, we will take 10 to 20 minutes to practice our oral English everyday. I believe that learning together can be fun!
Her voice sounds good, even though not very sweet as I expect, but after I listened it for a long time, it became more familiar, just like an old friend. And how can you complain at the voice of your friend?
And her English, I think it's better than me. But she said that my tone was the British English rather than the American English as she speak, because my pronunciation of the word "not". I should admit that I pronounced "not" like the British English more, even if I studied the American English when I started to listen Studioclassroom, but the change comes a little slowly and I often forgot to pronounce "o" in the tone of the American English. I will pay more attention on that in the future.
We will chat tomorrow, and if we have time, we will take 10 to 20 minutes to practice our oral English everyday. I believe that learning together can be fun!
2007年4月13日星期五
260 days left
Swimming is really a good sport, when you are swimming in the water, you forget anything except pushing the water and taking a breath. But when you are sitting on your chair, looking at the computer screen, and typing the phrase of 260 days left, the pressure comes again overwhelmingly.
On my way to dormitory from the Chengjian Natatorium which is 3 kilometers away from here, I recalled the philosophers of the ancient Greek and Quyuan, the greatest patriotic poet living during 353~277 BC in the period of the Warring States of China, and his state is Chu. I discovered one point that they, not only Quyuan but also the ancient Greek philosophers such as Socrates and Plato, are all very clear—I mean, not just their pure thought, at the same time, they have a pure body without any dust physically. Especially Quyuan, he even has a cleanliness. He always compares himself with fragrant flowers.
So I wondered that if I want to be a great person like Quyuan, I should first keep my body clear as well as my clothes and dormitory, then I will have a good mood that I'm clear and I must do some holy things too; even though I'm not a philosopher now, but I believe one day I will be one, because I can see the stars that guided me in the sky and I will follow them steadfastly.
On my way to dormitory from the Chengjian Natatorium which is 3 kilometers away from here, I recalled the philosophers of the ancient Greek and Quyuan, the greatest patriotic poet living during 353~277 BC in the period of the Warring States of China, and his state is Chu. I discovered one point that they, not only Quyuan but also the ancient Greek philosophers such as Socrates and Plato, are all very clear—I mean, not just their pure thought, at the same time, they have a pure body without any dust physically. Especially Quyuan, he even has a cleanliness. He always compares himself with fragrant flowers.
So I wondered that if I want to be a great person like Quyuan, I should first keep my body clear as well as my clothes and dormitory, then I will have a good mood that I'm clear and I must do some holy things too; even though I'm not a philosopher now, but I believe one day I will be one, because I can see the stars that guided me in the sky and I will follow them steadfastly.
2007年4月12日星期四
261 days left
Regrettably, my MP3 was broken after I copied the PowerPoint of Probability from my Mathematic teacher Dr. Chen this afternoon, and the files I copied maybe stored in the flash memory forever if the MP3 couldn't be repaired.
I spent 300 yuan on this tiny electronic device to help my listening English 18 months ago, even though it may less worthy than 100 yuan now, I still feel lost, because it really helped me much and companied with me for one year and a half. I couldn't leave it even one day. I filled audio files of Studioclassroom full with the 256MB memory and listened them on the road as well as at the break time after classes so that I won't waste any usable time.
Just now Pangpang called me consulting some related laws about his friend's driving licence detained in the communication police station because an car accident. He consulted me this morning and I came to the Law Department asking this from my teacher Mr. Zhou, who teaches Jurisprudence and Civil-Mercantile Law. He told me it already solved this afternoon when his friend payed 2000 yuan to the police station without the present of the opposite party, but I didn't think it's over because the person who was hitted by Pangpang's friend still have the right to prosecute.
I spent 300 yuan on this tiny electronic device to help my listening English 18 months ago, even though it may less worthy than 100 yuan now, I still feel lost, because it really helped me much and companied with me for one year and a half. I couldn't leave it even one day. I filled audio files of Studioclassroom full with the 256MB memory and listened them on the road as well as at the break time after classes so that I won't waste any usable time.
Just now Pangpang called me consulting some related laws about his friend's driving licence detained in the communication police station because an car accident. He consulted me this morning and I came to the Law Department asking this from my teacher Mr. Zhou, who teaches Jurisprudence and Civil-Mercantile Law. He told me it already solved this afternoon when his friend payed 2000 yuan to the police station without the present of the opposite party, but I didn't think it's over because the person who was hitted by Pangpang's friend still have the right to prosecute.
2007年4月11日星期三
262 days left
I visited the the Medical Imaging Group's home page of the Cambridge University Engineering Department just now. It only has about 6 doctors and 6 or 7 masters, and it's a little small than my previous thinking that the Cambridge must have a lot of researchers in the biomedical engineering domain. I saved the related websites as my bookmarks in my Firefox web browser, and I will visit them in the future finding some useful informations about my major, I'm sure I will find something valuable, because it's the University of Cambridge!
And I found a form of application of PhD at that site, it named Prospective Research Student Early Contact Form, it will be used for the purposes of processing applications for research studentships and initializing departmental databases with information concerning successful candidates for research studentships. But for me, the form seems a little earlier, since the applications just afford the applying for admission in 2009 at the latest date, and at that time I haven't graduate from my graduate college, and the most important thing is that I can't write some valuable personal reference in that form. How embarrassing!
And I found a form of application of PhD at that site, it named Prospective Research Student Early Contact Form, it will be used for the purposes of processing applications for research studentships and initializing departmental databases with information concerning successful candidates for research studentships. But for me, the form seems a little earlier, since the applications just afford the applying for admission in 2009 at the latest date, and at that time I haven't graduate from my graduate college, and the most important thing is that I can't write some valuable personal reference in that form. How embarrassing!
2007年4月10日星期二
263 days left
I nearly lost my minor certificate of law if I didn't go to the teacher's office of the Literary and Law College. I went to there and told to professor Yu that I haven't deliver my last paper yet, asking whether I can do it now as a compensation, he allowed it with a smile and give me the model of the thesis.
I studied law from the second semester of my freshman year until the last semester. During the 3 years, or 6 semesters, I studied law even harder than my own major. I wrote my paper myself, and seldom absented in the classes; I even went to listen the lectures of Law with the Law Department students from 03 grade to 05 grade, and bought about 30 books from a elder sister in 01 grade who was enroll by the Central University of Finance and Economics. But I think the most important thing is that I have known many good teachers, including Ms. He, Mr. Wu, Mr. Zhou, and professor Yu, etc. At the same time I learned a lot of things from them as well as their thought about law. These teachers care for me as well as my study and I respect them very much, and I often communicated with them.
Then I download an article and paste it in the model, and then, mission accomplished. In fact, the first paper of law I wrote is completely by myself. I remember that I spent two days in the library searching for the literatures and finished my paper, then I typed it to my computer and printed out. I nearly can remember the paper's name, My questions about the Constitution. I think that paper must scared the teacher, Ms. Liu. Even though that paper may be the worst in all my theses, but I can still recall the name as well as some contents, maybe just because that's really a paper what I wrote for heart.
I studied law from the second semester of my freshman year until the last semester. During the 3 years, or 6 semesters, I studied law even harder than my own major. I wrote my paper myself, and seldom absented in the classes; I even went to listen the lectures of Law with the Law Department students from 03 grade to 05 grade, and bought about 30 books from a elder sister in 01 grade who was enroll by the Central University of Finance and Economics. But I think the most important thing is that I have known many good teachers, including Ms. He, Mr. Wu, Mr. Zhou, and professor Yu, etc. At the same time I learned a lot of things from them as well as their thought about law. These teachers care for me as well as my study and I respect them very much, and I often communicated with them.
Then I download an article and paste it in the model, and then, mission accomplished. In fact, the first paper of law I wrote is completely by myself. I remember that I spent two days in the library searching for the literatures and finished my paper, then I typed it to my computer and printed out. I nearly can remember the paper's name, My questions about the Constitution. I think that paper must scared the teacher, Ms. Liu. Even though that paper may be the worst in all my theses, but I can still recall the name as well as some contents, maybe just because that's really a paper what I wrote for heart.
2007年4月9日星期一
264 days left
Swimming, I haven't play that sport about 4 months except once that Xu Xiao invited me and Tan Xiao to the washing center where have a mini swimming pool in the winter vacation. Today, Giant Gui asked me to Chengjian natatorium, and we spent 2 hours there. I was really exhausted, four months is quite a long time for me, an amateur but a swimming lover.
Today I saw a lot of acquaintances there, including Mr. Sun, a sport teacher who has suffered a serious disease of stroke.
Today I saw a lot of acquaintances there, including Mr. Sun, a sport teacher who has suffered a serious disease of stroke.
2007年4月8日星期日
265 days left
I spent about six hours to help Giant Gui to edit his presentation VCD this afternoon, cutting, connecting, again and again. The VCD will sent to England and be verified by the ambassador of the Embassy; if they admit, he will get the working-visa and go to England three month later. So the VCD is very important for him, and we just spent almost two hours to record it on yesterday's morning. Even though Giant Gui can speak a little English, but the presentation note I wrote maybe a little difficult for him, so we recorded the less than 5 minutes video for such a long time even with a group of words at one time. What a challenging work! So did the editing.
Giant Gui disrupted my plan today, he just left 3 hours for me tonight.
However, I hang out six hours outside and see something different, the bustling city with crowded vehicles and the buses full of people. It seems that I haven't seen this colorful world for a long time.
I see and think, that people struggled, enjoyed, and complained, but they will never escape the life, plain, very plain life that we must live with.
Sometime, I did think too much, in fact, I'm a plain man too. Why do I pretend to know everything, maybe that just mean I know nothing.
Giant Gui disrupted my plan today, he just left 3 hours for me tonight.
However, I hang out six hours outside and see something different, the bustling city with crowded vehicles and the buses full of people. It seems that I haven't seen this colorful world for a long time.
I see and think, that people struggled, enjoyed, and complained, but they will never escape the life, plain, very plain life that we must live with.
Sometime, I did think too much, in fact, I'm a plain man too. Why do I pretend to know everything, maybe that just mean I know nothing.
2007年4月7日星期六
266 days left
Kathy invited me to practice oral English with her, but I'm a little afraid of that, because my oral English is terrible! But I don't want to disappoint the lovely girl who has been suffered too much. From our chatting, I noticed that she don't have a good mother who just adored her sons rather than the daughter. I don't know exactly what they did to this girl, but I can feel that she was seriously hurt through her words typing in the chatting column.
So I agreed. But at first, my computer should ran smoothly with the talking service, at least without too much delay. Later I will test the voice chatting function with Tong Xin, one of my classmates, and if it's running OK, I'll be an oral English partner of Kathy. A little nervous.
Then I chat with Amy, suddenly I noticed that I can hardly keep with her lessons because I didn't have time to practice the writing of program in the compile computer language as well as C. So I must do something this weekend, pick up the book and the most importantly, debug the programs with my computer. Learning from the practice is the shortcut of this subject, and I think it's almost the shortcut of all subject. Practice makes perfect.
So I agreed. But at first, my computer should ran smoothly with the talking service, at least without too much delay. Later I will test the voice chatting function with Tong Xin, one of my classmates, and if it's running OK, I'll be an oral English partner of Kathy. A little nervous.
Then I chat with Amy, suddenly I noticed that I can hardly keep with her lessons because I didn't have time to practice the writing of program in the compile computer language as well as C. So I must do something this weekend, pick up the book and the most importantly, debug the programs with my computer. Learning from the practice is the shortcut of this subject, and I think it's almost the shortcut of all subject. Practice makes perfect.
2007年4月6日星期五
267 days left
I listened some piano songs of the Daydream recommend by Zhang Jing yesterday night. What should I say, they're pretty good and sounds like poems. For instance, when I was listening the song, Tears, many scenarios appeared in my brain, both nice and blue scenes; It helps opening the door of memory as well as my heart, and makes me quiet, cools down my consciousness.
I have been listening the classical music for about two weeks, during these days, each song in my computer has been listened at least 10 times, so even the most beautiful songs like the piano sonata Moonlight of Beethoven and the solo violin Air on a G String of Bach sounded not as fair-sounding as before. The change become necessary, and these master's musics need a period of deposition.
And I emailed to Sun Ming asking whether the Daydream can surpass those masters, why his music sounded so good? And does the melody means everything of a song? How to perceive the thought and feeling of the musician want to express?
Sun Ming is my only music teacher in the college, she has a well education in music and knows lots of about this form of art, so I believe she can answer my question and improve my musicianship.
I have been listening the classical music for about two weeks, during these days, each song in my computer has been listened at least 10 times, so even the most beautiful songs like the piano sonata Moonlight of Beethoven and the solo violin Air on a G String of Bach sounded not as fair-sounding as before. The change become necessary, and these master's musics need a period of deposition.
And I emailed to Sun Ming asking whether the Daydream can surpass those masters, why his music sounded so good? And does the melody means everything of a song? How to perceive the thought and feeling of the musician want to express?
Sun Ming is my only music teacher in the college, she has a well education in music and knows lots of about this form of art, so I believe she can answer my question and improve my musicianship.
2007年4月5日星期四
268 days left
But to my mom, I should make some promises to her, and the most important thing is keeping them through my whole life. For example, I promised her to get at least two doctor's degrees, one for me, the other for her. And the doctor degree getting for her is the compensation for her school missing.
She hope that one day I can be a great man, however, that's a blurry goal. So what's great? In my opinion, it is do something important and valuable. I've said many times that taking the graduate exam and be a graduate student is the first step to be a scientist. To the difference of others who just want a graduate certificate for a better job, I love science very much, and my interest to nature and science is any less than a 8-years young boy. I believe I can fulfill lots of research tasks in the future, because I have great creativity and imagination. So I need more knowledges, skills, educations, trainings, the abilities lead me to my success, in my mother's words, be great.
At today's class, my post doctor teacher Amy said that 5 years later we can surpass her if we follow her suggestions and keep an active attitude. I believe it's true, at least for me, a man with passionate feeling, cool brain, strong body and persevering faith. How can such a man can't be great if the circumstances is right? But I will say, if I'm in a bad condition, I will also do my best and resist the fate as Beethoven did, for my mom, for my dream.
She hope that one day I can be a great man, however, that's a blurry goal. So what's great? In my opinion, it is do something important and valuable. I've said many times that taking the graduate exam and be a graduate student is the first step to be a scientist. To the difference of others who just want a graduate certificate for a better job, I love science very much, and my interest to nature and science is any less than a 8-years young boy. I believe I can fulfill lots of research tasks in the future, because I have great creativity and imagination. So I need more knowledges, skills, educations, trainings, the abilities lead me to my success, in my mother's words, be great.
At today's class, my post doctor teacher Amy said that 5 years later we can surpass her if we follow her suggestions and keep an active attitude. I believe it's true, at least for me, a man with passionate feeling, cool brain, strong body and persevering faith. How can such a man can't be great if the circumstances is right? But I will say, if I'm in a bad condition, I will also do my best and resist the fate as Beethoven did, for my mom, for my dream.
2007年4月4日星期三
269 days left
Under the shadow of the failing of my parent's marriage, I'm very afraid of marriage. I said I never want to be a man like my father, but I worried that I have succeeded all his genes, including his selfishness and illiberality. I think these genes are embedded deeply in my body, and one day they will grow up overwhelmingly and conquer the faith and belief in my heart, and then, I will be a complete copy of my father—his perfect clone.
You must ask how did I have such a thought and lacking of confidence, I'm also not sure why, maybe I know myself better than anyone else, or maybe sometimes I can touch my subconscious and discovered what's in it.
So I worried that one day I will treat my wife—who must be the woman I loved very much in the world—just like my father treats my mother. Besides, I also worried I can't provide her a well living condition and give her a fortunate life, I really can't promise that.
...to be continued
You must ask how did I have such a thought and lacking of confidence, I'm also not sure why, maybe I know myself better than anyone else, or maybe sometimes I can touch my subconscious and discovered what's in it.
So I worried that one day I will treat my wife—who must be the woman I loved very much in the world—just like my father treats my mother. Besides, I also worried I can't provide her a well living condition and give her a fortunate life, I really can't promise that.
...to be continued
2007年4月3日星期二
270 days left
My father was such a man that I never want to be, especially for his rude attitude toward my mom and his selfishness as well as his illiberality. On the contrary, my mom is hospitable and very generous and it seems that she can forgive every thing.
But my mom can't read. In her opinion, this is the most vital vulnerability in her whole life, whereupon it becomes my father's most complacent reason that he finished his high school and my mother even didn't graduate from an elementary school. More of that, he looked down on my mom's rural identity, because he thought he lived in a big city.
I wondered why did he marry with his present wife, my mom? He's so proud that how can he fell in love with a rural girl without any school certificates? "I was blind that time," He said. If such words represent the more educated people in China, I would be inclined to retreat from my university unhesitatingly, that's the failing of education!
My mom was valetudinarian in her young ages, so she missed her school time regrettably. Besides, in 1970's, under the influence of the feudal culture, education is alway neglected for girls. So is it her wrong? Apparently not!
But my father didn't think so. He even shared this to his relatives and laughed at my mom together! How dare he do such mean things? He have completely forgotten that the woman he looked down was his own wife.
......to be continued
But my mom can't read. In her opinion, this is the most vital vulnerability in her whole life, whereupon it becomes my father's most complacent reason that he finished his high school and my mother even didn't graduate from an elementary school. More of that, he looked down on my mom's rural identity, because he thought he lived in a big city.
I wondered why did he marry with his present wife, my mom? He's so proud that how can he fell in love with a rural girl without any school certificates? "I was blind that time," He said. If such words represent the more educated people in China, I would be inclined to retreat from my university unhesitatingly, that's the failing of education!
My mom was valetudinarian in her young ages, so she missed her school time regrettably. Besides, in 1970's, under the influence of the feudal culture, education is alway neglected for girls. So is it her wrong? Apparently not!
But my father didn't think so. He even shared this to his relatives and laughed at my mom together! How dare he do such mean things? He have completely forgotten that the woman he looked down was his own wife.
......to be continued
2007年4月2日星期一
290 days left
My mom hope I can go to the universities in Nanjing or Shanghai, studying there, and working there, then live in there, so she can come back again. I know her feeling, but I choose the Xian Jiaotong University for my graduate years. She didn't say anything against my choice before, even one word, but yesterday when she whimpered in the telephone telling me the sad news, she eventually complained that, " Everybody is there except me..."
What should I do? I know my mother's nostalgic feelings, and I also know that she can't bear my rude, unkind father any more. But what could I do?
......to be continued
What should I do? I know my mother's nostalgic feelings, and I also know that she can't bear my rude, unkind father any more. But what could I do?
......to be continued
2007年4月1日星期日
271 days left
The sad news of the death of my aunt, who is the wife of my mom's oldest brother, shocked my mom seriously.
She died at noon, peacefully, painlessly; but for others, sadly. Especially for her closest relatives, her husband, son, daughter, as well as my mom. Even though my mom is not her closest relative, but she love my aunt so much. Actually, the relationship between them just like sister-german. My aunt is 9 years older than my mom, so she took care of my mom as her little sister, "Every time she came to see me or came back from other places, she alway took some presents for me, she always thought me" My mom recalled.
I can't understand that feeling because I have no brother or sister; even I have some, we don't grow up together, so we don't have such close relationships. But my mother has. She must be a lovely girl when she was young, because all the relatives and friends in her hometown like her very much. But at about the age of 20, she came to Lanzhou to succeed her father's job, and then, she got married with my dad; and then, I was born.
From that time, my mother seldom came to her hometown again, she was completely sole in Lanzhou without any former relatives here. I know some of her feeling, the feeling of far away from my parents that I have experienced when I came to Shenyang University of Technology in 2003.
......to be continued
She died at noon, peacefully, painlessly; but for others, sadly. Especially for her closest relatives, her husband, son, daughter, as well as my mom. Even though my mom is not her closest relative, but she love my aunt so much. Actually, the relationship between them just like sister-german. My aunt is 9 years older than my mom, so she took care of my mom as her little sister, "Every time she came to see me or came back from other places, she alway took some presents for me, she always thought me" My mom recalled.
I can't understand that feeling because I have no brother or sister; even I have some, we don't grow up together, so we don't have such close relationships. But my mother has. She must be a lovely girl when she was young, because all the relatives and friends in her hometown like her very much. But at about the age of 20, she came to Lanzhou to succeed her father's job, and then, she got married with my dad; and then, I was born.
From that time, my mother seldom came to her hometown again, she was completely sole in Lanzhou without any former relatives here. I know some of her feeling, the feeling of far away from my parents that I have experienced when I came to Shenyang University of Technology in 2003.
......to be continued
2007年3月31日星期六
272 days left
I chatted with galfkou and Brother Hou just now, who are both the predecessors in the Graduate Exam.
Galfkou is the super edition host of the studioclassroom.net, but this is our first chatting. He is about 28 or 29 years old, because he told me that he has graduated from graduate student two years ago and worked at a laboratory to do some science study now. To my surprise, he has had a chance to get his second master's degree in the subject of law, and he even passed the exam with a high score, but at last, he gave up the second degree. In his word, "I have no time and energy to finish the study work, and I'm urgently making money now." He also said I was as alike as him in the study of both science and law. I felt may be he like me. So he talk about his experiences and give me some confidence.
Brother Hou, my old buddie, a graduate student in grade one, told me his suggestion: reducing the study time but rising the efficiency. But my problem is how to concentrate on my study as well as sweep away the bothersome things. Maybe the answer must be found by myself. Sometimes the experiences are the very things that you must get through lots of tries and failures. Even though I have sometime, but I must hurry up.
Galfkou is the super edition host of the studioclassroom.net, but this is our first chatting. He is about 28 or 29 years old, because he told me that he has graduated from graduate student two years ago and worked at a laboratory to do some science study now. To my surprise, he has had a chance to get his second master's degree in the subject of law, and he even passed the exam with a high score, but at last, he gave up the second degree. In his word, "I have no time and energy to finish the study work, and I'm urgently making money now." He also said I was as alike as him in the study of both science and law. I felt may be he like me. So he talk about his experiences and give me some confidence.
Brother Hou, my old buddie, a graduate student in grade one, told me his suggestion: reducing the study time but rising the efficiency. But my problem is how to concentrate on my study as well as sweep away the bothersome things. Maybe the answer must be found by myself. Sometimes the experiences are the very things that you must get through lots of tries and failures. Even though I have sometime, but I must hurry up.
2007年3月30日星期五
273 days left
Some one always make promises, just like me. But the spider, Charotte, she just make one promise and kept it through all her life until she died. To promise what? Saving Wilbur's life and let the spring piggy see the first snow of the winter.
Sounds like a ridiculous tale, isn't it? But as the author say, "There is an old expression that says that ignorance is bliss, and I'm inclined to believe it's true". So do I. Sometimes ignorance means that you can think of something without prejudice, so you can see it more clearly.
Let's return back to the promise, Charotte said, "promises are something I never break." That sentence explains the very meaning of promise: never break. A spider can say that, then what about me-A human? I made many promises, but did I keep them as Charotte? I'm afraid, no. In this world, you shouldn't make any promise that will never be carried out, but you must keep some must-keep promises, such as I will never disappoint my mom. But the fact is I disappointed her in the College Entrance Examination, very much.
So the topic is return to the exam too, the Graduate Exam. This time, Even though I haven't promised to my mom, but I will do my best, never break, as Charotte said.
Sounds like a ridiculous tale, isn't it? But as the author say, "There is an old expression that says that ignorance is bliss, and I'm inclined to believe it's true". So do I. Sometimes ignorance means that you can think of something without prejudice, so you can see it more clearly.
Let's return back to the promise, Charotte said, "promises are something I never break." That sentence explains the very meaning of promise: never break. A spider can say that, then what about me-A human? I made many promises, but did I keep them as Charotte? I'm afraid, no. In this world, you shouldn't make any promise that will never be carried out, but you must keep some must-keep promises, such as I will never disappoint my mom. But the fact is I disappointed her in the College Entrance Examination, very much.
So the topic is return to the exam too, the Graduate Exam. This time, Even though I haven't promised to my mom, but I will do my best, never break, as Charotte said.
2007年3月29日星期四
274 days left Giant Gui's Self Presentation (translated by Jerry)
Hello! And nice to meet you!
My name is Wang Guiyu, and I'm 25 years old. As you see, I'm a Chinese; more exactly, I come from Shenyang, the biggest city in northeast of China. I live with my parents now, even though they are not very rich, but they give me a warm and nice family as well as a strong body with a tough spirit. I love them so much.
I was fascinated by sports when I was a little boy, especially love swimming, so I joined in the professional swimming training at that time. Finally, I got the certificate of the National Intermediate Coach of Swimming and the certificate of Swimming Lifeguard in 2004. After my first working year in 2001, I recognized that the lack of enough education must be the most serious handicap in my future life, so I returned to college and got my diploma through the national universal examination. I studied Logistic Management in my junior college, so I worked as a headwaiter at a hotel in 2003 and did a good job.
Maybe I should owe the good work to my excellent ability of learning and adaptaion: during those days, I improved my English and begin to study Japanese. Now I can speak English fluently, at the same time, use the daily Japanese to communicate with people. But I would rather like to thanks for my interesting of working in a hotel, yeah, I really like it：communicating with different guests and different cultures. I think that's the very reason why I can do the job so well. So please trust me, and trust my working passion and my responsibility, I'll do a better job here and always improve myself.
My name is Wang Guiyu, and I'm 25 years old. As you see, I'm a Chinese; more exactly, I come from Shenyang, the biggest city in northeast of China. I live with my parents now, even though they are not very rich, but they give me a warm and nice family as well as a strong body with a tough spirit. I love them so much.
I was fascinated by sports when I was a little boy, especially love swimming, so I joined in the professional swimming training at that time. Finally, I got the certificate of the National Intermediate Coach of Swimming and the certificate of Swimming Lifeguard in 2004. After my first working year in 2001, I recognized that the lack of enough education must be the most serious handicap in my future life, so I returned to college and got my diploma through the national universal examination. I studied Logistic Management in my junior college, so I worked as a headwaiter at a hotel in 2003 and did a good job.
Maybe I should owe the good work to my excellent ability of learning and adaptaion: during those days, I improved my English and begin to study Japanese. Now I can speak English fluently, at the same time, use the daily Japanese to communicate with people. But I would rather like to thanks for my interesting of working in a hotel, yeah, I really like it：communicating with different guests and different cultures. I think that's the very reason why I can do the job so well. So please trust me, and trust my working passion and my responsibility, I'll do a better job here and always improve myself.
2007年3月28日星期三
275 days left
I don't finish my today's predetermined task yet, but to the time of shutting down the power has left less than 2 hours. So I'll go finishing it now.
2007年3月27日星期二
276 days left
In the afternoon, I watched the film Gladiator. Then I was affected by the hero who is the general of the Rome's army. It was not my first time to be inspired by the film and the hero. He is a very tough man in the battle field and would never be defeated, however, he loves his family so much and be loyal to the Caesar, and at the same time, he was be loyal and respected by the whole army. His heroical personality also inspired the men who were fighting with him at arenas and finally be his soldier fighting for him as well as their freedom.
This character is a true man, a hero. I don't know if there was such a man in the Rome's history, but I'd rather reluctant admit that's just a fiction.
A man full of love, belief, honesty, loyalty, mercy, and full of power, was certainly respected as a hero. It's clearly that people from the whole world and history love heroes, and their tales had been telling generation by generation, never boring.
So if that is the true man a want to be? If he is my model in my heart. Yes, it should be. Since everyone loves hero, everyone should want to be a hero, as same as me.
This character is a true man, a hero. I don't know if there was such a man in the Rome's history, but I'd rather reluctant admit that's just a fiction.
A man full of love, belief, honesty, loyalty, mercy, and full of power, was certainly respected as a hero. It's clearly that people from the whole world and history love heroes, and their tales had been telling generation by generation, never boring.
So if that is the true man a want to be? If he is my model in my heart. Yes, it should be. Since everyone loves hero, everyone should want to be a hero, as same as me.
2007年3月26日星期一
277 days left
Eventually, my campaign just begin today. I finished the section1 of the chapter3 of the Higher Mathematics, and also browsed one section of the Probability and the Linear Algebra. I planed to finish my first review of the Higher Mathematics in the last 2 months, and watch at least one section of the Probability and the Linear Algebra each day. Two months review seems too long for the first time, but it deserve. I must build a very stable foundation of the math, especially the definition of all the important theorems, and at the same time, be familiar with them and know how to use them to solve basic problems. Even then, the two months seems not quite enough for it, because I did the problems a little slowly and there are some more problems waiting for me there.
So I must hurry up, quicken my problem-solving time, and that will be very helpful when I do the real graduate exam paper. If I can finish 2 section of the Higher Mathematics each day, I would get my plan on time. No one want to waste too much time in the first review, so do I.
Now, every minute seems so precious for me, but I need to keep a good mood at the same time.
During the whole day, my back music of study all come from the European classical masters, and I download some more Beethoven's symphonies on my computer. I was deeply impressed by Beethoven's great perseverance and his passion. So I believe that the shiny star will guide me by his great music.Thanks Beethoven.
So I must hurry up, quicken my problem-solving time, and that will be very helpful when I do the real graduate exam paper. If I can finish 2 section of the Higher Mathematics each day, I would get my plan on time. No one want to waste too much time in the first review, so do I.
Now, every minute seems so precious for me, but I need to keep a good mood at the same time.
During the whole day, my back music of study all come from the European classical masters, and I download some more Beethoven's symphonies on my computer. I was deeply impressed by Beethoven's great perseverance and his passion. So I believe that the shiny star will guide me by his great music.Thanks Beethoven.
2007年3月25日星期日
278 days left
Yesterday, I cost almost a whole day to finish my computer system's rebuilding, and now it's pretty faster than before. But I know if I want to compare with others, it's always the slowest computer among my classmate's. I only hope the speed can last for as long as one year until I pass the graduate exam and buy a T60 instead. My present computer's task is just helping me to read the PowerPoint of mathematics, reading English version magazines, and connecting with my friends.
From 11:30 of yesterday's night until 4:00 of today's morning, I chatted with my teacher Ke Li for nearly 5 hours. That's unbelievable! Our topic changed several times, and it includes study, life, philosophy, marriage, love, generation gap, movies, etc. She want to be our life guide, rather than just a teacher who has taught us two subjects. Even though I know she's not the life mentor I have been finding for years, she is a kind teacher anyway. She believes that I have thought too much about life, and I was a little extreme. But I think my attitude was objective, and my thinking was in-depth.
She suggested me to concentrate my energy to the graduate exam and don't waste time to think too much about others. At this point, I am very agree with her. My intention was so pure that I just want to be a scientist, so I will continue to study in the next ten, or even twenty years in the college to get my Doctor degrees one by one. So I choose the graduate exam to fulfill my dreams. Dear teacher, please don't worry about me, I will not disappoint you. I promise!
From 11:30 of yesterday's night until 4:00 of today's morning, I chatted with my teacher Ke Li for nearly 5 hours. That's unbelievable! Our topic changed several times, and it includes study, life, philosophy, marriage, love, generation gap, movies, etc. She want to be our life guide, rather than just a teacher who has taught us two subjects. Even though I know she's not the life mentor I have been finding for years, she is a kind teacher anyway. She believes that I have thought too much about life, and I was a little extreme. But I think my attitude was objective, and my thinking was in-depth.
She suggested me to concentrate my energy to the graduate exam and don't waste time to think too much about others. At this point, I am very agree with her. My intention was so pure that I just want to be a scientist, so I will continue to study in the next ten, or even twenty years in the college to get my Doctor degrees one by one. So I choose the graduate exam to fulfill my dreams. Dear teacher, please don't worry about me, I will not disappoint you. I promise!
2007年3月23日星期五
280 days left
I decided to rebuild my computer's system tomorrow. The slow booting speed tortured me nearly 2 month, and I can't bear it any more! In addition, about 3 days ago, it even can't get into the system. So, rebuilding, is just more than necessary now.
Maybe a renaissance of my computer means to a restart of my life of study, a more industrious life rather than a relaxed, even lazy life. I know I must keep up my spirit right now, because I have no time to chat, surf, and do something not important for the graduate exam. Tomorrow, the days left will be 279, so I need to hurry up.
I need to win the game, and I can't bear any failure of it. The only way for me is to go to the graduate college and study more and more knowledge, so that I can be more and more powerful, and whatever I want.
I love science and technology so much, how can I waste my precious time to do other unimportant things? What can I do without a doctor degree? Who can I be if I can't be a graduate student in the near future. If I want to handle my life and future, I must work hard. I don't want to say such words any more, this time I will just do what I would speak. Do more, say less, now!
Maybe a renaissance of my computer means to a restart of my life of study, a more industrious life rather than a relaxed, even lazy life. I know I must keep up my spirit right now, because I have no time to chat, surf, and do something not important for the graduate exam. Tomorrow, the days left will be 279, so I need to hurry up.
I need to win the game, and I can't bear any failure of it. The only way for me is to go to the graduate college and study more and more knowledge, so that I can be more and more powerful, and whatever I want.
I love science and technology so much, how can I waste my precious time to do other unimportant things? What can I do without a doctor degree? Who can I be if I can't be a graduate student in the near future. If I want to handle my life and future, I must work hard. I don't want to say such words any more, this time I will just do what I would speak. Do more, say less, now!
2007年3月22日星期四
281 days left
After today's class, I went to mathematic department and find my teacher Chen Yan, a serious professor but with lots of cares for his students, who taught us the Probability at my sophomore year, to ask him for the PowerPoint of the mathematics, including Higher Mathematics, Probability, and Linear Algebra. These subjects are included in the math paper of the graduate exam, so I must know them very well and get a high score through it. If I want a high total score, the math and the major scores must be very high, they are the score point, which means if you failed in any subject, you will lose the game undoubtedly.
Fortunately, I know Mr. Chen very well: I respect him, and he likes me. I went to his Higher Mathematics' class last year and learned with nearly 300 freshmen of the Management College for a whole semester. Of course, he promised that, and was quite willing to help me to improve my math. He is a good teacher, and I trust him. So I choose him rather than others.
I like her serious academic attitude. He alway emphasize the definition itself and the fundamental meanings of it as well as it's relationships between other math problems. To my regret, I didn't join into his math model team to participate the National Math Model-Building Competition of College Students. At that time, I didn't have the consciousness, but now, it's too late. I have to prepare the graduate exam so that I have no extra time to do this. What a pity!
The PowerPoint files are in my computer now, so I won't waste my precious time again. The game just begin...
Fortunately, I know Mr. Chen very well: I respect him, and he likes me. I went to his Higher Mathematics' class last year and learned with nearly 300 freshmen of the Management College for a whole semester. Of course, he promised that, and was quite willing to help me to improve my math. He is a good teacher, and I trust him. So I choose him rather than others.
I like her serious academic attitude. He alway emphasize the definition itself and the fundamental meanings of it as well as it's relationships between other math problems. To my regret, I didn't join into his math model team to participate the National Math Model-Building Competition of College Students. At that time, I didn't have the consciousness, but now, it's too late. I have to prepare the graduate exam so that I have no extra time to do this. What a pity!
The PowerPoint files are in my computer now, so I won't waste my precious time again. The game just begin...
2007年3月21日星期三
282 days left
Tan Xiao and Zhang Jing are in Beijing's home now. Depressingly enough, they both failed in the graduate exam. We talked about going abroad and finding jobs, at least they are tough and didn't acting as I thought.
Too many failures makes me doubt the reality I faced. Is it such hard like that? The future seemed blurry again. Thinking always makes me tired, and is it really predetermined, or is this really just depends on your fortune rather than hard working in some words. Zhang Jing believed it: it's destined.
But I really want to do something in the field of science and technology, and finally be a famous scientist or engineer, not just for the reputation, but for my ideality and passions. So I thought my aim was quite lofty that can inspire me study harder and harder and help me conquer all the difficulty along the road. However, is that just a pretense I found to myself? Should I doubt it and even doubt my ability?
To our surprise, Ma Lin got more than 400 score! That's amazing! She is so successful that cheered me up again. At least there was a winner among us.
The nightmare of the day before yesterday is a good premonition from the theory of Zhou Gong. In his words, who dreamed of lightning foreshows an excellent grade, if you are a student.
Too many failures makes me doubt the reality I faced. Is it such hard like that? The future seemed blurry again. Thinking always makes me tired, and is it really predetermined, or is this really just depends on your fortune rather than hard working in some words. Zhang Jing believed it: it's destined.
But I really want to do something in the field of science and technology, and finally be a famous scientist or engineer, not just for the reputation, but for my ideality and passions. So I thought my aim was quite lofty that can inspire me study harder and harder and help me conquer all the difficulty along the road. However, is that just a pretense I found to myself? Should I doubt it and even doubt my ability?
To our surprise, Ma Lin got more than 400 score! That's amazing! She is so successful that cheered me up again. At least there was a winner among us.
The nightmare of the day before yesterday is a good premonition from the theory of Zhou Gong. In his words, who dreamed of lightning foreshows an excellent grade, if you are a student.
2007年3月20日星期二
283 days left
My blog has been running for 14 days since I founded it nearly half a month ago. I haven't gave it up yet and I'm sure I will continue the diaries to enscroll my usual life during the fighting days of preparing for the graduate exam.
Just now I told my mother about my yesterday's nightmare while she was calling to me. She's so depressed and angrily yelled at me, complaining that's because I didn't eat healthy and afraid of spending money. In her words, a nightmare happened when you are weak physically or mentally. To my regret, I shouldn't tell her that with the known of that she's a devotional Buddhist, even worse, she was a superstitious woman sometimes.
She worried about my health after my electric cooker and electro-magnetic cooker was robbed by the apartment's supervisor who was a monstrous old woman with a vicious heart.
But through that thing, I understand that, if you are powerful enough, no one can hurt you, and even no one dare challenge you under any circumstances, as long as you have the power!
So be powerful is just what I what from that time, mentally, physically, and the most important- socially. can I? Sure I can, and I will.
Just now I told my mother about my yesterday's nightmare while she was calling to me. She's so depressed and angrily yelled at me, complaining that's because I didn't eat healthy and afraid of spending money. In her words, a nightmare happened when you are weak physically or mentally. To my regret, I shouldn't tell her that with the known of that she's a devotional Buddhist, even worse, she was a superstitious woman sometimes.
She worried about my health after my electric cooker and electro-magnetic cooker was robbed by the apartment's supervisor who was a monstrous old woman with a vicious heart.
But through that thing, I understand that, if you are powerful enough, no one can hurt you, and even no one dare challenge you under any circumstances, as long as you have the power!
So be powerful is just what I what from that time, mentally, physically, and the most important- socially. can I? Sure I can, and I will.
2007年3月19日星期一
284 days left
15 days has past science I was arrived in Shenyang, actually, they were totally wasted without any achievement. I just have been chatting and chatting, surfing and surfing, typing and typing on the web. I was a little addicted to that-posting on the forum, waiting for the reply and sometimes chatting with others.
Until a horrible nightmare in the middle of the night yesterday, I was woke up suddenly with a scare several times. The feeling? Death. My brain just like a silver screen full of snowflakes, I couldn't breath even though I have tried my best, my heart was beating fast and I felt I was hit by lightning. I wonder if I was died at that time, as soon as I felt my bumping heart, I told to myself, "I'm still alive", even though it's hard for me to open my mouth. But one thing is sure, at that time, I'm awake and the feeling is real. The terrible feeling scared me very much while I was sitting on the bed, thinking, what's wrong with me. Apparently it's not a dream, but why that like the world doomsday? Does it mean something? Or is it an alarm the God give to me? Or something bad will happen? I'm an antitheist and quite healthy physically, so how could that happen in this circumstances without any coincidences and cautions.
My classmates who want to participate in the army of the graduate exam are studying hard everyday, they have started half a month ago just at the very time I came back.
If the alarm just means to that- I should study now, or choose death.
Until a horrible nightmare in the middle of the night yesterday, I was woke up suddenly with a scare several times. The feeling? Death. My brain just like a silver screen full of snowflakes, I couldn't breath even though I have tried my best, my heart was beating fast and I felt I was hit by lightning. I wonder if I was died at that time, as soon as I felt my bumping heart, I told to myself, "I'm still alive", even though it's hard for me to open my mouth. But one thing is sure, at that time, I'm awake and the feeling is real. The terrible feeling scared me very much while I was sitting on the bed, thinking, what's wrong with me. Apparently it's not a dream, but why that like the world doomsday? Does it mean something? Or is it an alarm the God give to me? Or something bad will happen? I'm an antitheist and quite healthy physically, so how could that happen in this circumstances without any coincidences and cautions.
My classmates who want to participate in the army of the graduate exam are studying hard everyday, they have started half a month ago just at the very time I came back.
If the alarm just means to that- I should study now, or choose death.
2007年3月18日星期日
285 days left
In the morning, I got up a little late with much tired. Yesterday's letter has posted on the blog, and also sent them to brother Wang and Yang Yuan this afternoon. I want to tell Kathy that we are in the same nationality-Chinese, we are both from China. I don't know if she could be touched by my email, but I hope so. I don't want to lose her just for this letter, and I really want to be her friend, even if I would never see her face to face. I'm waiting for her email, not for her apology but her consciousness of our common homeland-China. It's not her wrong, she was just misled by the government of Taiwan who have been committing themselves to eliminate people's national emotion in Taiwan.
Zhang Liang just told me Tan Xiao can obey a further remove to another University or College, that's not bad. But if he is willing to be there, if his is interested in a different major, if he can be a jurist in that way? Sounds like Zhang Jing has successfully past the score-line of Beijing Normal University. That's really a soul-stirring news, and I must say congratulations to Zhang Jing. She's more lucky than Yangyuan.
This time, the challenge has been coming to me closer and closer. Do I prepared for that? If no, just do something now.
Zhang Liang just told me Tan Xiao can obey a further remove to another University or College, that's not bad. But if he is willing to be there, if his is interested in a different major, if he can be a jurist in that way? Sounds like Zhang Jing has successfully past the score-line of Beijing Normal University. That's really a soul-stirring news, and I must say congratulations to Zhang Jing. She's more lucky than Yangyuan.
This time, the challenge has been coming to me closer and closer. Do I prepared for that? If no, just do something now.
2007年3月17日星期六
A Letter to My Taiwan's Internet Friend Kathy
Dear Kathy：
首先请原谅我今天在MSN上不辞而别。
后来我想了很多很多。我尽量说服自己要以一种平的心情和宽厚的态度看待台湾问题，可即使这样，我还是无法说服自己接受你的那一句“我也很热爱我的祖国——台湾”。
台独在大陆是一个很敏感的话题，人人皆曰：台湾是中国领土不可分割的一部分！可是除了历史学家、政治家（我没有用“政客”是因为这些人在台湾问题上的确是为祖国的统一大业着想的）和一些爱国人士外，很少有人真正思考过这个问题。
记得一次我在火车上，身边坐着三个与我同龄（当时我19岁）的英国人，我们一起在火车上渡过了23个小时。到后来大家混熟了，对面的英国姑娘问我对台湾问题是怎么看的？我反问他们，若是North Ireland要独立，英国人怎么看？他们一下子被我的问题怔住了，可是过了一会，那个姑娘说"If they insist, we'll let them go!" 呵呵，多么慷慨的回答，多么稚嫩的孩子们！我们居然在一列火车上就这么轻易而民主地决定了一大块领土的归属问题。
再进一步，如果英国全民公投，结果真的是让北爱重新并入爱尔兰，那么女王会答应吗？英国的议会会答应吗？掌权者们会答应吗？Absolutely not!执政者有多方面的考虑，而最重要的一点就是——利益！对一个国家来说，尤其是像英国那样的小小岛国，损失北爱１４万平方公里那么大的一块领土对它意味着不仅仅是少了一大块土地，更丧失了一百多万人口，和无法计算的财政损失，以及无数的军事设施，甚至会严重影响国家安全！俄罗斯的车臣危机虽然引起了全球的关注和非议，可没有一个执政者会迫于压力而同意车臣的独立。以俄罗斯辽阔的领土，一个1.5万平方公里的小小车臣又算得了什么，可是独立——坚决不行！领土的完整，又不仅仅是利益的考虑，更是一个国家尊严的象征！中国，一个有着古老文明的泱泱大国，现在连自己家里的这点领土问题都不能解决，又谈何复兴，谈何立足于世界民族之林！
再回到当时的火车上，他们那么说之后，我就显得很被动。因为如果照他们的理解推理下去，若是台湾全民公投决定独立，我们也就应该let it go了。可事实却是，在这两个问题上，前提完全不同，甚至有着天壤之别！
数个世纪前，英国吞併了爱尔兰，随即大量殖民并屠杀当地居民，２０世纪初南爱尔兰才独立，而北爱却至今仍在英国之手。从二十年代一直到九十年代，北爱尔兰人民一直都没有放弃过斗争，可是经过长期的殖民和屠杀之后，北爱本土的英国人已超过了爱尔兰人，所以后来北爱尔兰投票决定前途时，当然是占多数的英国人要求留在英国。于是我们可以得出的结论是，英国人作为一个彻彻底底的殖民者和侵略者，他们根本就是用武力侵占了一块根本就不属于他们的领土，中国香港不也是如此吗？可恰恰相反，北爱的回归却是爱尔兰国家的统一，是爱尔兰民族的再次团聚。所以，他们的"let them go"是应该的。然而事实却是英国人并没有让北爱回归，但却再也无力抓住香港这颗东方明珠。
在车臣这个仅有１．５万平方公里的土地上居住着一个唯一的，完全独立的民族——纳赫乔（车臣民族），他们也是从沙皇俄国时期就为了自己的主权而斗争，直至苏联建国也从未放弃过。而苏联解体时车臣即宣布独立，可却遭到了俄罗斯的残酷镇压。而现在车臣的恐怖主义极端分子，说实话，也是俄罗斯逼出来的。这里又与北爱尔兰不同，纳赫乔一直是一个争取独立和自主的民族，他们是真正为了自由而战。可根据《联合国宪章》，既然他们曾经被征服而并入沙俄，从国际法国家的继承角度来讲，他就应该是俄罗斯的领土，所以即使有人同情车臣，却也无能为力。
这两个例子之后，从世界历史中还有很多很多例子可以拿出来作为参照。你若是有兴趣也可以研究一下。下面我们就来谈谈台湾。
首先请问你一个问题，你是什么民族？你一定会回答：当然是汉族！没错，台湾２０００多万居民中，９８％是汉族。而正如我们之前所讨论得到的结果一样，只占２％的九族人最早也发源于大陆。以下是我从网上找到的一段资料。——“台湾早期住民中，大部分是从中国大陆直接或间接移居而来的。1971年和1974年，两次在台南县左镇乡发现了迄今为止台湾最早的人类化石，被命名为“左镇人”。考古学家认为，“左镇人”是在3万年前从大陆到台湾的，与福建考古发现的“清流人”、“东山人”同属中国旧石器时代南部地区的晚期智人，有着共同的起源，都继承了中国直立人的一些特性。”
还记得你给我转贴的客家人的５次大迁徙吗？客家人和闽南人（也就是你所谓的本省人）占台湾人口的８４％，而随蒋移居台湾的“外省人”占１４％。客家人从东晋五胡乱华始第一次迁移至台湾到清末最后一次迁徙，其中有三次正好是中华民族的三次民族大融合时期；闽南人之所以称其为闽南人，也是由于他们祖居闽南（闽自古就是福建省的简称）；至于外省人就更是中华民族的嫡系子孙了。由此看来，台湾民族的构成几乎１００％都是中华民族，而其中９８％是中华民族中正统的汉族，这个血统甚至比大陆还要纯正！
民族问题解决了，下面我们再来看国家问题。聊天的时候我好像和你提到过我酷爱读三国，而在《三国演义》与《三国志》中都记载有吴王孙权派兵到达“夷洲”（台湾）并正式建立行政区的记载。而从那以后台湾就成了历代王朝版图上永远存在的领土，而且是中央直辖，从未有过地区自治。（这一点和朝鲜半岛不同，有机会再讨论朝鲜问题。）虽然宝岛台湾曾遭受过荷兰人与日本人的殖民与侵略，可台湾人民从未停止过针对殖民者的斗争。
１９４９年蒋介石败退台湾，带走了南京国民政府大量的财产和他的嫡系军队，时刻准备反攻大陆收复失地，可是蒋氏父子终其两代也未能再踏上大陆一步。原因很多也很复杂，可是放下这些单且不论，就蒋收复失地的口号我们也可以看出，蒋介石是坚决拥护他的中华民国而不承认大陆政府的，他也坚持中国只有一个，只不过他所承认的合法政府是中华民国罢了。蒋如此，蒋经国亦是如此。不然不会在联合国即将承认中华人民共和国为中国的唯一合法代表之际（第2758号决议），国民党政府坚持以“汉贼不两立”而宣布退出联合国。
所以无论是中国共产党还是国民党，都承认一点——中国只有一个！蒋介石的传记我曾经看过，可无论怎样，他毕竟是中国历史上曾经叱咤风云的人物，他毕竟还是中华民族的一分子，他也深深热爱着这一片土地，他的祖国——中国。虽然他曾经对日本人百般妥协退让，可当中日全面开战时，正面战场的主力部队依然是国民党的部队。而那些奋勇杀敌、与日本人浴血奋战的将士们，不管是哪个党派，不管是哪个民族，却都是中国人民的儿子，都是中华民族大家庭里的一员，他们都是在为保家卫国而与日寇进行着殊死搏斗。这些人，即便是国民党，也同样被我们奉为英雄，而且是民族英雄！
可是当１９８８年李登辉上台之后，却毅然抛出了他的“两国论”。我不明白李登辉，这个祖籍福建
永定的中国人，为什么会如此狠心地分裂他的祖国？也许这就是政治吧，只有政治才会让人变得这么厚颜无耻，这么忘祖叛国！既然如此，我们稍稍分析一下也无妨。李登辉先后两次入美留学，在美国完成了他的博士论文，于是后来蒋经国一死他就成了美国的全权代表。美国虽然自始至终都在支持台湾政府，可却在１９７９年与中华民国断交而与中华人民共和国建交，这层给蒋氏父子蒙上了的阴影也只有等着他来驱散。从冷战美苏争霸时二战实质的唯一战胜国到现在世界唯一的超级大国，美国无时无刻不在处心积虑地对社会主义国家进行着和平演变或是直接打击。苏联的解体，越南战争，还有朝鲜战争不就是铁的事实吗？可是一个拥有１３亿人口，９６０万平方公里领土的中国却依然屹立在世界的东方，美国人的潜在敌人不但没有消灭，反而更加强大了。怎样才能遏制中国的发展？怎样才能根除这个心腹大患？我想这再明显不过了，那就是——利用台湾！
自古云：攘外必先安内。试问一个国家如果连领土和统一问题都解决不了还怎么能专注于搞经济建设，还怎么能跟美国在经济实力上一决高下？所以这就是美国扶植和支持台湾政府的用意所在。而现在，陈水扁甘当美国的走狗还不够，居然还会给日本人——中华民族永远的敌人摇尾巴！如今台独势力的作大正在对大陆政府进行步步紧逼，如果到了２００８年台湾“法理独立”以后，“台湾共和国”就会“明正言顺”地成立，虽然国际社会不会承认，可中国政府的容忍将会导致灾难性的后果。台湾如果独立，中国大陆面临的现实威胁是，中国可能重复1991年苏联解体的历史。1990年波罗的海小国要独立，戈尔巴乔夫的新思维提出了让与主权的妥协，即同意有独立要求的共和国或自治州拥有主权。这种同意分享主权的新思维，其结果不仅仅是各共和国分享了主权，而且导致了国家解体。现在的台湾问题也一样，台湾要的就是独立，因此任何中国在主权上做出让步的建议，都非常可能导致跟苏联解体同样的后果。如果你是中国大陆领导人，你会怎么做？没错，如果真到了那一天，只有动武！因为我们已被逼上绝路，这是一个关乎于中国国家命运和生死存亡的时刻，任何妥协都是对人民的犯罪。
然而你以为大陆就真想打台湾吗？你以为我们不会为我们的亲人担心吗？对岸可是我们血浓于水的骨肉同胞呀！可是台独分裂分子们又何尝这样想过？他们只会考虑到自己的政治利益，对美日马首是瞻。
那么什么是政治利益？根本上讲，其实就是权力。众所周知权力是诱人的，更何况于一个国家的主权？所以台独分子们为什么一定要将台独进行到底，就是因为没人舍得放下最高领导人的权力，更何况他们是一股强大的政治势力而绝非个别少数人。两岸政治集团的斗争如果没有美国的介入，结果是显而易见的，可李、陈恰恰是想利用美中的这一结构体战略矛盾而实现他们自己的政治目的。
你既然喜爱《孙子兵法》就不会不知这些政治伎俩和把戏，这里没有谁是绝对正确的，只有永恒的利益。可是作为华夏文明的传人，我们不能忘记我们共同的祖先，共同的文化，共同的传承。也许在几千年后国家真会消失，可民族永远也不会消亡。从政治上讲，国家大于民族；而从文化上讲，民族却超越国家。
我是否告诉过你我很少与人聊天能聊到与你的那种程度，现在我知道为什么了，是我潜意识里把你当作亲人一样看待。因为我台湾的确有亲人，而两岸虽只隔一道海峡却好像有几光年的距离，所以记得当时我收到你回复的短消息时立刻感到一种莫名的激动与亲切。你是那么的活泼可爱充满活力，而我真的有点把你当妹妹看，虽然后来我了解到你比我大。
我曾说过我对政治不感兴趣，但这并不意味着我不关心政治。试问一个有责任感的青年怎能不关心国家和民族的兴亡？！这是我作为一个人而非动物唯一值得自豪的一点，因为我是一个有着家国责任感的人，我是那么深深地迷恋着生我养我的这一方热土。作为一个工科大学生，我为什么还要把自己累个半死去兼修法学，如果仅仅为了满足我对文科的热爱那我为什么不去选文学和哲学？亦或是学法只是想沉浸在柏拉图式思辨趣味的中吗？不！因为我知道中国法制进程缓慢，民主程度不高；我知道中国需要一大批品学兼优的法学家；我知道中国的政治体制需要改良。而要想改造这一切，途径只有一条——那就是法制。台湾政府一定已经把大陆政府和中国共产党丑化到了无以复加的地步，可是你想想，若是真如他们所说，中国怎会被美国视为他世界霸权的最大威胁着，社会主义的国家还有朝鲜和古巴呢，美国怎么不把他们当回事？若是真如他们所说，中国经济又怎么会在这些年来一直保持着如此强劲的发展势头和如此旺盛的生命力，而一跃超过日本成为世界外汇储备第一大国，又怎么会在2006年以GDP总量超过26000亿美元而成为世界排名第四的经济大国、排名第三的贸易大国和发展中国家的第一外资引进大国？古今中外没有哪个政府和政党能彻底杜绝腐败，中国共产党当然也一样。可是在我们伟大文明的历史长河中却出现过孔子、庄子、墨子等等一批又一批伟大的思想家，正是因为中华民族的思想深处有这些巨人们作为顶梁支柱，我才会坚信中国在政治的改良与法制的贯彻施行方面是大有可为的。而当祖国统一之时，国民党和其他党派的参政也许会改变共产党一党专政的体制，使中国向更民主的方向发展，从而为振兴中华起到极大的推进作用。
我把庄子、屈原和司马迁奉为我的三大导师，表面上庄子对我影响最大，可我必须承认在我的潜意识里却几乎全是屈原的影子。屈原那“路漫漫其修远兮，吾将上下而求索”的九死不悔的执著精神、“宁正言不讳以危身”的峻结人格和眷恋故国、以身相殉的伟大精神，才是我们中华民族真正的民族之魂！
多么期待着有一天我能以一个中国人的身份踏上宝岛台湾却不会被视为是外国人；多么期望我能像牵着自己姐姐的手一样牵着你的手徜徉在日月潭畔；多么希望我能带着你和你可爱的学生们畅游祖国的大好河山：在最接近蓝天的布达拉宫和朝圣的藏民一起接受洗礼，在辽阔的内蒙古大草原纵马奔驰，在雄伟的万里长城上讲述中华民族千百年来无尽的英雄事迹，在西子湖畔一边背诵着苏轼的“欲把西湖比西子”一边寻找许仙与白娘子相会的断桥，日落时分在千年古城丽江的街道上漫步，在九寨沟的五花海边一起流下激动的眼泪......
刘渊源
2007年3月17日 于沈阳
首先请原谅我今天在MSN上不辞而别。
后来我想了很多很多。我尽量说服自己要以一种平的心情和宽厚的态度看待台湾问题，可即使这样，我还是无法说服自己接受你的那一句“我也很热爱我的祖国——台湾”。
台独在大陆是一个很敏感的话题，人人皆曰：台湾是中国领土不可分割的一部分！可是除了历史学家、政治家（我没有用“政客”是因为这些人在台湾问题上的确是为祖国的统一大业着想的）和一些爱国人士外，很少有人真正思考过这个问题。
记得一次我在火车上，身边坐着三个与我同龄（当时我19岁）的英国人，我们一起在火车上渡过了23个小时。到后来大家混熟了，对面的英国姑娘问我对台湾问题是怎么看的？我反问他们，若是North Ireland要独立，英国人怎么看？他们一下子被我的问题怔住了，可是过了一会，那个姑娘说"If they insist, we'll let them go!" 呵呵，多么慷慨的回答，多么稚嫩的孩子们！我们居然在一列火车上就这么轻易而民主地决定了一大块领土的归属问题。
再进一步，如果英国全民公投，结果真的是让北爱重新并入爱尔兰，那么女王会答应吗？英国的议会会答应吗？掌权者们会答应吗？Absolutely not!执政者有多方面的考虑，而最重要的一点就是——利益！对一个国家来说，尤其是像英国那样的小小岛国，损失北爱１４万平方公里那么大的一块领土对它意味着不仅仅是少了一大块土地，更丧失了一百多万人口，和无法计算的财政损失，以及无数的军事设施，甚至会严重影响国家安全！俄罗斯的车臣危机虽然引起了全球的关注和非议，可没有一个执政者会迫于压力而同意车臣的独立。以俄罗斯辽阔的领土，一个1.5万平方公里的小小车臣又算得了什么，可是独立——坚决不行！领土的完整，又不仅仅是利益的考虑，更是一个国家尊严的象征！中国，一个有着古老文明的泱泱大国，现在连自己家里的这点领土问题都不能解决，又谈何复兴，谈何立足于世界民族之林！
再回到当时的火车上，他们那么说之后，我就显得很被动。因为如果照他们的理解推理下去，若是台湾全民公投决定独立，我们也就应该let it go了。可事实却是，在这两个问题上，前提完全不同，甚至有着天壤之别！
数个世纪前，英国吞併了爱尔兰，随即大量殖民并屠杀当地居民，２０世纪初南爱尔兰才独立，而北爱却至今仍在英国之手。从二十年代一直到九十年代，北爱尔兰人民一直都没有放弃过斗争，可是经过长期的殖民和屠杀之后，北爱本土的英国人已超过了爱尔兰人，所以后来北爱尔兰投票决定前途时，当然是占多数的英国人要求留在英国。于是我们可以得出的结论是，英国人作为一个彻彻底底的殖民者和侵略者，他们根本就是用武力侵占了一块根本就不属于他们的领土，中国香港不也是如此吗？可恰恰相反，北爱的回归却是爱尔兰国家的统一，是爱尔兰民族的再次团聚。所以，他们的"let them go"是应该的。然而事实却是英国人并没有让北爱回归，但却再也无力抓住香港这颗东方明珠。
在车臣这个仅有１．５万平方公里的土地上居住着一个唯一的，完全独立的民族——纳赫乔（车臣民族），他们也是从沙皇俄国时期就为了自己的主权而斗争，直至苏联建国也从未放弃过。而苏联解体时车臣即宣布独立，可却遭到了俄罗斯的残酷镇压。而现在车臣的恐怖主义极端分子，说实话，也是俄罗斯逼出来的。这里又与北爱尔兰不同，纳赫乔一直是一个争取独立和自主的民族，他们是真正为了自由而战。可根据《联合国宪章》，既然他们曾经被征服而并入沙俄，从国际法国家的继承角度来讲，他就应该是俄罗斯的领土，所以即使有人同情车臣，却也无能为力。
这两个例子之后，从世界历史中还有很多很多例子可以拿出来作为参照。你若是有兴趣也可以研究一下。下面我们就来谈谈台湾。
首先请问你一个问题，你是什么民族？你一定会回答：当然是汉族！没错，台湾２０００多万居民中，９８％是汉族。而正如我们之前所讨论得到的结果一样，只占２％的九族人最早也发源于大陆。以下是我从网上找到的一段资料。——“台湾早期住民中，大部分是从中国大陆直接或间接移居而来的。1971年和1974年，两次在台南县左镇乡发现了迄今为止台湾最早的人类化石，被命名为“左镇人”。考古学家认为，“左镇人”是在3万年前从大陆到台湾的，与福建考古发现的“清流人”、“东山人”同属中国旧石器时代南部地区的晚期智人，有着共同的起源，都继承了中国直立人的一些特性。”
还记得你给我转贴的客家人的５次大迁徙吗？客家人和闽南人（也就是你所谓的本省人）占台湾人口的８４％，而随蒋移居台湾的“外省人”占１４％。客家人从东晋五胡乱华始第一次迁移至台湾到清末最后一次迁徙，其中有三次正好是中华民族的三次民族大融合时期；闽南人之所以称其为闽南人，也是由于他们祖居闽南（闽自古就是福建省的简称）；至于外省人就更是中华民族的嫡系子孙了。由此看来，台湾民族的构成几乎１００％都是中华民族，而其中９８％是中华民族中正统的汉族，这个血统甚至比大陆还要纯正！
民族问题解决了，下面我们再来看国家问题。聊天的时候我好像和你提到过我酷爱读三国，而在《三国演义》与《三国志》中都记载有吴王孙权派兵到达“夷洲”（台湾）并正式建立行政区的记载。而从那以后台湾就成了历代王朝版图上永远存在的领土，而且是中央直辖，从未有过地区自治。（这一点和朝鲜半岛不同，有机会再讨论朝鲜问题。）虽然宝岛台湾曾遭受过荷兰人与日本人的殖民与侵略，可台湾人民从未停止过针对殖民者的斗争。
１９４９年蒋介石败退台湾，带走了南京国民政府大量的财产和他的嫡系军队，时刻准备反攻大陆收复失地，可是蒋氏父子终其两代也未能再踏上大陆一步。原因很多也很复杂，可是放下这些单且不论，就蒋收复失地的口号我们也可以看出，蒋介石是坚决拥护他的中华民国而不承认大陆政府的，他也坚持中国只有一个，只不过他所承认的合法政府是中华民国罢了。蒋如此，蒋经国亦是如此。不然不会在联合国即将承认中华人民共和国为中国的唯一合法代表之际（第2758号决议），国民党政府坚持以“汉贼不两立”而宣布退出联合国。
所以无论是中国共产党还是国民党，都承认一点——中国只有一个！蒋介石的传记我曾经看过，可无论怎样，他毕竟是中国历史上曾经叱咤风云的人物，他毕竟还是中华民族的一分子，他也深深热爱着这一片土地，他的祖国——中国。虽然他曾经对日本人百般妥协退让，可当中日全面开战时，正面战场的主力部队依然是国民党的部队。而那些奋勇杀敌、与日本人浴血奋战的将士们，不管是哪个党派，不管是哪个民族，却都是中国人民的儿子，都是中华民族大家庭里的一员，他们都是在为保家卫国而与日寇进行着殊死搏斗。这些人，即便是国民党，也同样被我们奉为英雄，而且是民族英雄！
可是当１９８８年李登辉上台之后，却毅然抛出了他的“两国论”。我不明白李登辉，这个祖籍福建
永定的中国人，为什么会如此狠心地分裂他的祖国？也许这就是政治吧，只有政治才会让人变得这么厚颜无耻，这么忘祖叛国！既然如此，我们稍稍分析一下也无妨。李登辉先后两次入美留学，在美国完成了他的博士论文，于是后来蒋经国一死他就成了美国的全权代表。美国虽然自始至终都在支持台湾政府，可却在１９７９年与中华民国断交而与中华人民共和国建交，这层给蒋氏父子蒙上了的阴影也只有等着他来驱散。从冷战美苏争霸时二战实质的唯一战胜国到现在世界唯一的超级大国，美国无时无刻不在处心积虑地对社会主义国家进行着和平演变或是直接打击。苏联的解体，越南战争，还有朝鲜战争不就是铁的事实吗？可是一个拥有１３亿人口，９６０万平方公里领土的中国却依然屹立在世界的东方，美国人的潜在敌人不但没有消灭，反而更加强大了。怎样才能遏制中国的发展？怎样才能根除这个心腹大患？我想这再明显不过了，那就是——利用台湾！
自古云：攘外必先安内。试问一个国家如果连领土和统一问题都解决不了还怎么能专注于搞经济建设，还怎么能跟美国在经济实力上一决高下？所以这就是美国扶植和支持台湾政府的用意所在。而现在，陈水扁甘当美国的走狗还不够，居然还会给日本人——中华民族永远的敌人摇尾巴！如今台独势力的作大正在对大陆政府进行步步紧逼，如果到了２００８年台湾“法理独立”以后，“台湾共和国”就会“明正言顺”地成立，虽然国际社会不会承认，可中国政府的容忍将会导致灾难性的后果。台湾如果独立，中国大陆面临的现实威胁是，中国可能重复1991年苏联解体的历史。1990年波罗的海小国要独立，戈尔巴乔夫的新思维提出了让与主权的妥协，即同意有独立要求的共和国或自治州拥有主权。这种同意分享主权的新思维，其结果不仅仅是各共和国分享了主权，而且导致了国家解体。现在的台湾问题也一样，台湾要的就是独立，因此任何中国在主权上做出让步的建议，都非常可能导致跟苏联解体同样的后果。如果你是中国大陆领导人，你会怎么做？没错，如果真到了那一天，只有动武！因为我们已被逼上绝路，这是一个关乎于中国国家命运和生死存亡的时刻，任何妥协都是对人民的犯罪。
然而你以为大陆就真想打台湾吗？你以为我们不会为我们的亲人担心吗？对岸可是我们血浓于水的骨肉同胞呀！可是台独分裂分子们又何尝这样想过？他们只会考虑到自己的政治利益，对美日马首是瞻。
那么什么是政治利益？根本上讲，其实就是权力。众所周知权力是诱人的，更何况于一个国家的主权？所以台独分子们为什么一定要将台独进行到底，就是因为没人舍得放下最高领导人的权力，更何况他们是一股强大的政治势力而绝非个别少数人。两岸政治集团的斗争如果没有美国的介入，结果是显而易见的，可李、陈恰恰是想利用美中的这一结构体战略矛盾而实现他们自己的政治目的。
你既然喜爱《孙子兵法》就不会不知这些政治伎俩和把戏，这里没有谁是绝对正确的，只有永恒的利益。可是作为华夏文明的传人，我们不能忘记我们共同的祖先，共同的文化，共同的传承。也许在几千年后国家真会消失，可民族永远也不会消亡。从政治上讲，国家大于民族；而从文化上讲，民族却超越国家。
我是否告诉过你我很少与人聊天能聊到与你的那种程度，现在我知道为什么了，是我潜意识里把你当作亲人一样看待。因为我台湾的确有亲人，而两岸虽只隔一道海峡却好像有几光年的距离，所以记得当时我收到你回复的短消息时立刻感到一种莫名的激动与亲切。你是那么的活泼可爱充满活力，而我真的有点把你当妹妹看，虽然后来我了解到你比我大。
我曾说过我对政治不感兴趣，但这并不意味着我不关心政治。试问一个有责任感的青年怎能不关心国家和民族的兴亡？！这是我作为一个人而非动物唯一值得自豪的一点，因为我是一个有着家国责任感的人，我是那么深深地迷恋着生我养我的这一方热土。作为一个工科大学生，我为什么还要把自己累个半死去兼修法学，如果仅仅为了满足我对文科的热爱那我为什么不去选文学和哲学？亦或是学法只是想沉浸在柏拉图式思辨趣味的中吗？不！因为我知道中国法制进程缓慢，民主程度不高；我知道中国需要一大批品学兼优的法学家；我知道中国的政治体制需要改良。而要想改造这一切，途径只有一条——那就是法制。台湾政府一定已经把大陆政府和中国共产党丑化到了无以复加的地步，可是你想想，若是真如他们所说，中国怎会被美国视为他世界霸权的最大威胁着，社会主义的国家还有朝鲜和古巴呢，美国怎么不把他们当回事？若是真如他们所说，中国经济又怎么会在这些年来一直保持着如此强劲的发展势头和如此旺盛的生命力，而一跃超过日本成为世界外汇储备第一大国，又怎么会在2006年以GDP总量超过26000亿美元而成为世界排名第四的经济大国、排名第三的贸易大国和发展中国家的第一外资引进大国？古今中外没有哪个政府和政党能彻底杜绝腐败，中国共产党当然也一样。可是在我们伟大文明的历史长河中却出现过孔子、庄子、墨子等等一批又一批伟大的思想家，正是因为中华民族的思想深处有这些巨人们作为顶梁支柱，我才会坚信中国在政治的改良与法制的贯彻施行方面是大有可为的。而当祖国统一之时，国民党和其他党派的参政也许会改变共产党一党专政的体制，使中国向更民主的方向发展，从而为振兴中华起到极大的推进作用。
我把庄子、屈原和司马迁奉为我的三大导师，表面上庄子对我影响最大，可我必须承认在我的潜意识里却几乎全是屈原的影子。屈原那“路漫漫其修远兮，吾将上下而求索”的九死不悔的执著精神、“宁正言不讳以危身”的峻结人格和眷恋故国、以身相殉的伟大精神，才是我们中华民族真正的民族之魂！
多么期待着有一天我能以一个中国人的身份踏上宝岛台湾却不会被视为是外国人；多么期望我能像牵着自己姐姐的手一样牵着你的手徜徉在日月潭畔；多么希望我能带着你和你可爱的学生们畅游祖国的大好河山：在最接近蓝天的布达拉宫和朝圣的藏民一起接受洗礼，在辽阔的内蒙古大草原纵马奔驰，在雄伟的万里长城上讲述中华民族千百年来无尽的英雄事迹，在西子湖畔一边背诵着苏轼的“欲把西湖比西子”一边寻找许仙与白娘子相会的断桥，日落时分在千年古城丽江的街道上漫步，在九寨沟的五花海边一起流下激动的眼泪......
刘渊源
2007年3月17日 于沈阳
2007年3月16日星期五
287 days left
Zhang Liang told me a sad news when I called to him tonight- my best friend Tan Xiao was failed in the Graduate Exam. He aimed at Beijing Normal University's Law College with his girlfriend Zhang Jing who was willing to go to the Chemistry College. I don't know if Zhang Jing has a good fortune, but I don't want to listen such sad news anymore.
Yang Yuan has failed, she is an excellent student, but she just failed. Zhang Jing is also a brilliant student, but that doesn't mean that she can pass the exam easily. Just as Yang Yuan said, "Luck is the most important ingredient for the success, especially when you are aiming at another University rather than your native one."
Someone say frustrations make a man. Is that true? I doubt about it very much. By contraray, I believed that accomplishments make a successful and confident man. Too many setbacks can make you exhausted undoubtedly, but even a big shock can also ruin your life. The shock like this.
During the winter vacation, we talked about our thoughts, believes and doubts of life many times. We found that we are also good friends who still have a lot of same intersts that give us so much resonance. He wants to be a jurist and stayed at college to teach his students and instruct his theory, and I want to be a scientist and an engineer who researches in the laboratory all day and finally make some significant inventions that promote the development of human being. We all want to achieve something and making our life valuable; we all love this country so much.
But if he can't finish his master degree, how can he be a jurist, and if I can go to the laboratory just with a bachelor's degree? Apparently not!
So that's why an examination can simply decide one's life, why we must rush into the graduated college, why lots of students go abroad to pursue a better education opportunity.
I don't konw Tan's feeling about his failure, may be he has cried yet. Should I call him and give a consolation? I'm willing to, but I don't know if that will stimulate him at this time. He must walk out of the difficulty by himself, anyone couldn't give him a hand.
I can't continue writing any more. I can't imagine what will going on for my friend. What's I can do is just blessing for him now.
Yang Yuan has failed, she is an excellent student, but she just failed. Zhang Jing is also a brilliant student, but that doesn't mean that she can pass the exam easily. Just as Yang Yuan said, "Luck is the most important ingredient for the success, especially when you are aiming at another University rather than your native one."
Someone say frustrations make a man. Is that true? I doubt about it very much. By contraray, I believed that accomplishments make a successful and confident man. Too many setbacks can make you exhausted undoubtedly, but even a big shock can also ruin your life. The shock like this.
During the winter vacation, we talked about our thoughts, believes and doubts of life many times. We found that we are also good friends who still have a lot of same intersts that give us so much resonance. He wants to be a jurist and stayed at college to teach his students and instruct his theory, and I want to be a scientist and an engineer who researches in the laboratory all day and finally make some significant inventions that promote the development of human being. We all want to achieve something and making our life valuable; we all love this country so much.
But if he can't finish his master degree, how can he be a jurist, and if I can go to the laboratory just with a bachelor's degree? Apparently not!
So that's why an examination can simply decide one's life, why we must rush into the graduated college, why lots of students go abroad to pursue a better education opportunity.
I don't konw Tan's feeling about his failure, may be he has cried yet. Should I call him and give a consolation? I'm willing to, but I don't know if that will stimulate him at this time. He must walk out of the difficulty by himself, anyone couldn't give him a hand.
I can't continue writing any more. I can't imagine what will going on for my friend. What's I can do is just blessing for him now.
2007年3月15日星期四
288 days left
I met Yangyuan on QQ this afternoon and chatted with her about one hour. She's now in the School of Life Science and Technology of Xian Jiaotong University. Although we are classmate of middle school, the really communication between us just from one week ago, even though we have talked to each other at school; and the really know to her is just from one hour ago when I started to read her blog which was writen down her feeling of life.
When I read her essays and poems, I'm getting to know that she's such a touching girl that full of passion in her heart. Not noly have a good grade, which is the only impression she left to me, but she's also very charmful for her temperament of poetess. And then I wrote that "I'm so regret knowing you this late" in the comment column.
But to my surprise, she didn't get a good score in the Graduate Exam, failed in the subject of major. She said all of the questions on the paper that she has never seen before. She failed, not because she didn't work hard, but for the bad luck, for the bad education system of China without equity.
Also to my surprise, facing to such a failure, her mood was so calm. From her essay, I can see her courage, it seems there's no need to worry about her. I don't think so. That exterior calm is just a cover of her interior sadness deeply in her heart, her pride, her confidence, even her self-esteem were all hurt by this shock. But what shoud we do for her? Just as she said, maybe time can cure her illness gradually in the future, and only time can.
Cheers! For all the failures of the Graduate Exam, as long as we tried hard, we are heros.
When I read her essays and poems, I'm getting to know that she's such a touching girl that full of passion in her heart. Not noly have a good grade, which is the only impression she left to me, but she's also very charmful for her temperament of poetess. And then I wrote that "I'm so regret knowing you this late" in the comment column.
But to my surprise, she didn't get a good score in the Graduate Exam, failed in the subject of major. She said all of the questions on the paper that she has never seen before. She failed, not because she didn't work hard, but for the bad luck, for the bad education system of China without equity.
Also to my surprise, facing to such a failure, her mood was so calm. From her essay, I can see her courage, it seems there's no need to worry about her. I don't think so. That exterior calm is just a cover of her interior sadness deeply in her heart, her pride, her confidence, even her self-esteem were all hurt by this shock. But what shoud we do for her? Just as she said, maybe time can cure her illness gradually in the future, and only time can.
Cheers! For all the failures of the Graduate Exam, as long as we tried hard, we are heros.
2007年3月14日星期三
289 days left
I talked with Katharine this afternoon again, nothing important. But we got to know each other better. From our conversation, I know she has just found her job and lived in a strange city, a little far from her family. She must calculate carefully about her account, even to reduce the times calling to her parents, just for saving money.
She felt confused about something, and belived that she was too unskilled about social matters. I consoled her that just because we are young, so we are active; and just because we are active, so we are young.
Sometimes I don't belive myself as well. I'm also lack of self-confidence, even more serious than her. For example, I suspected if I can go to Xian Jiaotong University next year, if I can get an excellent score at the graduate examination, and if I can be a scientist and carry out my ideality at last.
I'm even lack of confidence to take care my parents well in the future, to love my father and mother just like they love me.
Brother Wang have talked with me about the social responsibility. "Without responsibility,life just leave the emptiness ." I have to admit he's right. So I have to concentrate my energy and most of my time to prepare the exam. At the same time, I must keep a good mood, and enjoy life. So I have to learn more from Kathy, not only English, but also her passion and active attitude of life. Let's be strong and powerful!
She felt confused about something, and belived that she was too unskilled about social matters. I consoled her that just because we are young, so we are active; and just because we are active, so we are young.
Sometimes I don't belive myself as well. I'm also lack of self-confidence, even more serious than her. For example, I suspected if I can go to Xian Jiaotong University next year, if I can get an excellent score at the graduate examination, and if I can be a scientist and carry out my ideality at last.
I'm even lack of confidence to take care my parents well in the future, to love my father and mother just like they love me.
Brother Wang have talked with me about the social responsibility. "Without responsibility,life just leave the emptiness ." I have to admit he's right. So I have to concentrate my energy and most of my time to prepare the exam. At the same time, I must keep a good mood, and enjoy life. So I have to learn more from Kathy, not only English, but also her passion and active attitude of life. Let's be strong and powerful!
2007年3月13日星期二
290 days left
Yestoday afternoon, I went to school while he was sleeping on my bed. He was so tired to make his graduate thesis all night even without a nap. After class, we went to a restaurant for dinner, and then to wash ourselves.
Washing makes your body clean, sometimes it also makes your heart clean. We talked too much, from life to philosophy to one's value viewpoint to the cosmos to histroy to humanity to economy...
Yes, he listened to me from beginning to end, talked about his own point, his job, family and his understanding of life. He was not a guider, just a listener, a friend, a person the as same as me. We are equal. I told him I need a life tutor, who can change my life, who can makes me powerful in the thought, who can extricate me from the confused world.
But at least I have some precious treasure, that is friendship. Maybe one day I can find a tutor, even can't, I can also enjoy with my family and friends. I can even cultivate my morality by myself.
Today I talked to Katharine by the MSN. She is a really lovely girl I met in a forum , who's come from Taiwan. Her English is pretty good, better than mine. And I learned something from her, not just English, her aspiring character. I don't know her age, but that's not important. Confucius have said that "Walking along three people, there must be a person is my teacher."
Washing makes your body clean, sometimes it also makes your heart clean. We talked too much, from life to philosophy to one's value viewpoint to the cosmos to histroy to humanity to economy...
Yes, he listened to me from beginning to end, talked about his own point, his job, family and his understanding of life. He was not a guider, just a listener, a friend, a person the as same as me. We are equal. I told him I need a life tutor, who can change my life, who can makes me powerful in the thought, who can extricate me from the confused world.
But at least I have some precious treasure, that is friendship. Maybe one day I can find a tutor, even can't, I can also enjoy with my family and friends. I can even cultivate my morality by myself.
Today I talked to Katharine by the MSN. She is a really lovely girl I met in a forum , who's come from Taiwan. Her English is pretty good, better than mine. And I learned something from her, not just English, her aspiring character. I don't know her age, but that's not important. Confucius have said that "Walking along three people, there must be a person is my teacher."
2007年3月12日星期一
291 days left
Wang Zhiyu, my friend in Shenyang, who's about 10 years older than me came to my dormitory at 11 o'clock. We knew each other at the Xingwei swimming pool, where I also knew Giant Gui, elder brother Monkey, and younger borther Tank, and many many other people in all ages from 8 to 80. And of course my coach of swimming skill, Zhang Hong, who won a State Champion when she was a teenager. And her son Wang Youjian, 13, followed the way of her mother to be a professional swimming athlete. I've taught Youjian severl times as his home-teacher. But I would like to say we are friends rather than just a simple relationship of the contract. Coach Zhang coached me for free, and I learned breaststroke, crawl stroke, back stroke, and butterfly stroke from her, exercised almost every day with the children in her team.
But Wang Zhiyu is my closest buddy. He understand me quite well, helped me in my lives, encouraged me when I feel lost, and often communicated with me.
But Wang Zhiyu is my closest buddy. He understand me quite well, helped me in my lives, encouraged me when I feel lost, and often communicated with me.
2007年3月11日星期日
292 days left
In order to practise my English reading feeling, I found a reading comprehension book yesterday and read some articles with questions followed. "You must do four reading articles everyday to improve your feelings of the Reading Comprehension of the exam," Zhangjing said at the benquet of my dad's birthday, one hour before I left Lanzhou.
She's right. And I should keep doing this practise everyday as she said.
I was also confused how can I take enough time to learn my major courses, the very important, even crucial subject-Single Chip Microcomputer & Digital Signal Processor and others. I know must take some times out to learn it, and I'm also quite interested in this practical subject. That's not bad.
Not being a man as I promised yesterday, I lost many hours surfing on the web, not just for study, while others were studying hard in the self-study-classroom. I cheat myself again and the time I've lost will never come back. Even a baby kowns that but I, as a 23-year old adult, can't do it. Such ridiculous!
Everyday when I get to know something, the next day is almost coming. I mean I always repented late. When I get up the next day, the mean circle goes on.
So should I repent earlier tomorrow? Even at the very time I get up. I don't konw, really really don't understand myself. Sometimes I was a stranger to myself.
Where is my perseverance? God, I beg you give it back to me, please.
She's right. And I should keep doing this practise everyday as she said.
I was also confused how can I take enough time to learn my major courses, the very important, even crucial subject-Single Chip Microcomputer & Digital Signal Processor and others. I know must take some times out to learn it, and I'm also quite interested in this practical subject. That's not bad.
Not being a man as I promised yesterday, I lost many hours surfing on the web, not just for study, while others were studying hard in the self-study-classroom. I cheat myself again and the time I've lost will never come back. Even a baby kowns that but I, as a 23-year old adult, can't do it. Such ridiculous!
Everyday when I get to know something, the next day is almost coming. I mean I always repented late. When I get up the next day, the mean circle goes on.
So should I repent earlier tomorrow? Even at the very time I get up. I don't konw, really really don't understand myself. Sometimes I was a stranger to myself.
Where is my perseverance? God, I beg you give it back to me, please.
2007年3月10日星期六
293 days left
I got up late this morning, nearly 7:30. Then Giant Gui called me and we went to Taiyuan Street to buy my new glasses. I lost my glasses in the sleeper compartment of the train just before I arrived in Shenyang. This is the second time I lost my glasses during college, and the new one cost me 300 yuan. So expensive! Even that's under such circumstance that Giant Gui's aunt was quite familiar with the boss of the glasses shop next to her flower's shop. I have to eat steam bread all this month because I was in financial deficit and in debt of 100 yuan.
It doesn't matter, my mother cooked 5 bottles of spicy beef ketchup for me and lots of delicious sausages. In this words, my life standard was still quite high with the delectable sandwiches every day.
Browsing web lost my lots of precious time these days, I was difficult not to be tempted. So I must change this situation to concentrate on my study works. Refuse the lure! Be a man!
I haven't finished my Advanced listening task yet, so that's all today. I'll study now!
It doesn't matter, my mother cooked 5 bottles of spicy beef ketchup for me and lots of delicious sausages. In this words, my life standard was still quite high with the delectable sandwiches every day.
Browsing web lost my lots of precious time these days, I was difficult not to be tempted. So I must change this situation to concentrate on my study works. Refuse the lure! Be a man!
I haven't finished my Advanced listening task yet, so that's all today. I'll study now!
2007年3月9日星期五
294 days left
I called my mom just now and and sent my late Women's Day's blessing. She's sounded very happy. She told me that my middle school English teacher visited her and gave her a present this afternoon. It's a preey bedgown.
Miss Wei is my dear English teacher of middle school. We got along well during the 3 years. But at the end of the high school, just before the College Entrance Examination, we became good friends.
This kind of friendship must be last for as long as my life, I belive. Why? Because I appreciate her for the helpness she gave to me which helps me pass the exam. She encouraged me at the last time, even cut pencils for me to use in the exam. How can I forget that? And she also helped my mother and my father many times during my college years. She found a herbalist doctor cured my dad's face nerval paralysis through acupuncture.
This year's score of the graduate exam has came out gradually. I met a schoolmate who's in the major of Electric Engineering Automation aiming at Zhejing University, and he got 384 scores. Excellent score!
I know if I want to pass the exam I must at least got the score like that. His triumphant smile was still in my brain. A clever lucky boy with hard work.
By the way, I appled a QQ number-434511167, so that I can download the audio file of Let's Talk in English of Studioclassroom from a girl named Asi, 22 who's my only friend in the QQ list now.
Miss Wei is my dear English teacher of middle school. We got along well during the 3 years. But at the end of the high school, just before the College Entrance Examination, we became good friends.
This kind of friendship must be last for as long as my life, I belive. Why? Because I appreciate her for the helpness she gave to me which helps me pass the exam. She encouraged me at the last time, even cut pencils for me to use in the exam. How can I forget that? And she also helped my mother and my father many times during my college years. She found a herbalist doctor cured my dad's face nerval paralysis through acupuncture.
This year's score of the graduate exam has came out gradually. I met a schoolmate who's in the major of Electric Engineering Automation aiming at Zhejing University, and he got 384 scores. Excellent score!
I know if I want to pass the exam I must at least got the score like that. His triumphant smile was still in my brain. A clever lucky boy with hard work.
By the way, I appled a QQ number-434511167, so that I can download the audio file of Let's Talk in English of Studioclassroom from a girl named Asi, 22 who's my only friend in the QQ list now.
2007年3月8日星期四
Today,I create my own blog--逍遥游
Casually,I visited someone's blog today, actually it was a girl's blog. I don't know her, but her mild words and quite feeling makes me feel so good. By reading her blog, I know she is also a college student from Shanghai. So I wonder that why don't me create a blog of myself to write down my own feelings. So I did.
To the year of 2008, it just left 295 days; and to the Graduate Students Examination also just left 315 days. To carry out my dream, I must pass the exam, and get into my new University- Xi'an Jiaotong University.
Today is the International Women's Day. But I forgot to buy a telephone card to call my mom. Even though My mom doesn't understand English, but I also want to say "Happy Women's Day" to her, my dear mother, on my first blog. I love her so much.
For another reason, I can improve my writing English through keeping blogging every day. My latest CET-6's score was not as good as I wish, just because the writing. I just got 30 out of 110 scores in total in that section. The writing skill is very important in the graduate exam, take about 30 percent score. So I must practice it more harder.
I named my blog "逍遥游" in Chinese. It means "a degage journey" in English. If I can find a more accurate explanation someday, I will redefine it.
Ok. That's all for my first blog on 8, March, 2007.
To the year of 2008, it just left 295 days; and to the Graduate Students Examination also just left 315 days. To carry out my dream, I must pass the exam, and get into my new University- Xi'an Jiaotong University.
Today is the International Women's Day. But I forgot to buy a telephone card to call my mom. Even though My mom doesn't understand English, but I also want to say "Happy Women's Day" to her, my dear mother, on my first blog. I love her so much.
For another reason, I can improve my writing English through keeping blogging every day. My latest CET-6's score was not as good as I wish, just because the writing. I just got 30 out of 110 scores in total in that section. The writing skill is very important in the graduate exam, take about 30 percent score. So I must practice it more harder.
I named my blog "逍遥游" in Chinese. It means "a degage journey" in English. If I can find a more accurate explanation someday, I will redefine it.
Ok. That's all for my first blog on 8, March, 2007.
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